blueskies ♥

moved.

2009-12-20T12:46:00.001+10:00

I HAVE MOVED IF YOU STILL DIDNT KNOW~

TO http://xprettyskies.blogspot.com

MOVED

2009-11-28T18:40:00.001+10:00

dear readers,

i apologise for the INCONVENIENCE but i have MOVED once more.

http://xprettyskies.blogspot.com/

please continue visiting :]

the reason why i have moved will be on my new blog~
thanks..

joona.

till that day.. & gimme advice!!

2009-11-26T19:57:00.003+10:00

there are times i lose hope and want to give up.. 
but the smile on your face helps me forget about all my worries.

dear readers,

so today was a boring day..
cause i finished all my assignments/assessments..
so i felt really relaxed..
& finally ms kuno realised my prefered name was "joona" =="
she thought it was a mistake and had johnno on it?
joona & johnno doesnt even look similar. O.O
anyways..
yeah.

form; boring like hell..
drama; ms kuno..
morning tea; drank orange juice..
pcl; went to G block and emailed camille on webmail..
hpe; sarah who had to drag me out of the water.. drowned me so i saved myself.. and then i had to rescue michael.. he was heavy but i succeeded.
lunch; tried to get BBI medical form.. but couldnt find teachers.
french; watched movies..
afterschool; came home and watched ep 15 you're beautiful -drool-

so yeah after that i was youtubing sad songs..
most of them were really sad but i found one that i fell in love with.. XD
its on my msn as my pm right now..
but i bet no one's noticed.
cause joona is invisible now..
maybe i should make a scene or forever hold my peace ehh..

i cried a moment ago..
feeling bizzare.. and heartbroken with no reason..
maybe i finally realised that i shouldnt be living in my dreams and fantasies and return to reality.. and face the truth..
meaning i should give up and move on.
BUT I DONT WANNA AT THE SAME TIME :'(

waaaa~ i need serious love advice and i will listen so please contact me on mobile or msn
mobile: 0401543582
msn: sportsgirl_s2@live.com.au

oh and this is private stuff so dont like stalk..
anyways..
tomorrow is gonna be a big day for me & im not going to school..
basketball comp.. bshs pride..
i dont wanna go seriously~ although i love basketball.. these days im addicted to school..
its weird for a normal teenager but STILL :[
& there's also a no limits party..
D:

well wish me luck & please contact me
joona.

the smile on his face.

2009-11-25T21:04:00.003+10:00

A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face.

dear readers,

somehow today i realized how i don't smile as much..
like i only smile forcibly or smile while laughing.. but naturally..
its gone..
i noticed this.. when i was walking to school from the bus stop and when i was crossing campus a lot.. i could tell i was looking sad or expression less.
i miss those days when i didn't know anything about love and heartbreaks.
if only i went back to year 4 i guess.. but when i think this sometimes.. i feel pain because if my wish came true.. i wouldn't know all the people i know right now.. and i'll still be living in Sydney happily..
still i guess nothing much would change cause im filled with bad luck..

subjects;
form; felt abit depressed..
jts; almost killed the same finger..-read yesterday's blog-
morning tea; ate food..
french; watched a movie & camille got into trouble for eating an apple
english; ooh~ saw somebody and daydreamed for the lesson =3=
flute audition; recieved a very positive comment from teacher but i know i stuffed it..
lunch; went around looking for tiff and being nervous about maths test
maths; i just know i epicly failed T.T but that was my last test for the year at school :D

yeah..
my title for today's blog was "the smile on his face.."
because that is one smile.. that i won't ever forget even with my bad memory.
i wish that smile on his face never fades.. and i'll do everything i can to NEVER EVER let it fade.
i dont feel like blogging anymores..
but know that i love you guys :]

joona.

BAD LUCK DAY!

2009-11-24T20:02:00.005+10:00

dreams are just wishes our heart makes when we're fast asleep.
so dont rely so much on your dreams..
because if we believe something too much..
the more painful it is when it doesnt come true.

dear readers,

im suffering today!!
my wrist is stuffed, my finger is grated,my knee is bleeding and my back is breaking T.T
WHY?
here's the story..

so joona went to basketball training very early today for once..
and she had a stuffed up wrist.. then
during JTS she was daydreaming about someone while using the belt sander.. and grated her finger.. and ruined her job =="
later when school finished she decided to go down the c block to outside of school stairs and guess what!! she falls and kills her knee..
it looks fine and so she continues walking but soon it starts bleeding.. it was very gross.
when she arrived at home she decides to lie down on her bed and accidentally forgot to take her pencil box that she randomly put there in the morning and lies on it..
and it stabs her back T.T

yes, readers.. i've got seriously bad luck..
soo..
my subjects today..
form; boring as per usual.
hpe; slept & while sleeping i drew on my hpe book. when i finally woke-up,the drawing was O.O
morning tea; talked to many people.. and screamed a lot?
jts; day dreaming~~ AHHH!! HOT HOT HOT!! omg~ my finger got grated.. AHH BLOOD!!
maths; i decided to talk to polina about my lovelife for advice..
lunch; laughed sooo much.. and a green bouncy handball slapped my face T.T
english; i stuffed up my speech because my palm cards were stuffed.. eg. conclusion 3rd card.

so not the best day..
i wanted to die..
O.O its was painful and terrifying..
also found out that i'm not going to school on friday..
which means no maths!! YAY~
but T.T no, no limits.. && its a party..
waaaaaaa~
well, enough of my whinging..

goodnight and sleeptight.

joona.

ps. i have maths test tomorrow and flute auditions..

2009-11-23T17:51:00.002+10:00

i wanna love you,
i wanna hold you,
i wanna stay close to you
and i want it to be me and you.

dear readers,
today wasn't an okay day..
i guess.
i woke up with a nightmare it was about failing drama and english -yes, i know i have ASIAN dreams- i saw the clock then and it was still 5:00am so i decided to stare at the ceiling and then my mum came into my room and turning the light on.. -she is very random at times- and i decided to stare at the light then.. about 1hour later~
i finally realised that was a boring thing to do.. so i decided to stare at the light while listening to sad music..
finally it was 6:30am and my three alarm clocks began to ring. and i went to shower and get ready for school. i ate waffle and managed to get on a bus to school by 8:00am!

before school; sat there with friends..
form; boring as usual.
french; went in with a happy mood -saw someone- & watched movies for the whole lesson.
morning tea; -saw someone- & mosquitoes decided to attack.. so sarah and i ran away.
assembly; yr 8 assembly T.T & we had to talk about vertical form classes.
hpe; swimming i had fun i guess but lost my hair tie.
lunch; -saw someone- i decided i was completely out of my mind..
drama; -saw someone AGAIN- & then had my stand-up comedy performance.. i failed:] & then my MEAN LADY TEACHER GAVE US THE MOST SCARY SURPRISE ATTACK!!
a responding task of this stand-up comedy we just watched 5 mins ago.. it was totally not expected.
afterschool; i had wind ensemble and found out we were performing in 2 weeks in front of all yr 8 &9's OMG!! I said T.T i mean me, being a total newbie to bshs band.. just found this out =3=

well i felt sad after lunch today because of what vy said to me.. i kept me thinking through wind ensemble which made me lose count in some rests.. but the rest was all good. while walking to bus stop i talked to ivan to help me with the reason i was feeling upset and he kept saying "ooh~ buy him play boy magazine!!" and i walking off with a pissed off face..

i arrived home and decided to msn..
i only have my english presentation & maths assessment & flute auditions left. :]
wish me luck

joona.

lovely day --> miserable day

2009-11-22T22:37:00.002+10:00

i heard a sad song playing on the radio,
about a girl who loves him
but she never really let it show.

dear readers,

so when i thought today was my perfect day..
i get a huge mood change at 4pm?
yeah.. after talking to my friend amanda on msn..
we were talking seriously about life and friendship..
and i sorta exploded.
my mood got worse later on having heaps and heaps of doubts..
believing nonsensical things..

it seems im one person who can never have a happily ever after..
i feel like i live in a fairytale and i feel like the princess which has never ending problems and when i think i have this happy scene.. my conscience just ruins everything and i get depressed..

well, i know none of that is true because
1. i live in reality
2. even if i were living in a fairytale i can never be a princess.
3. its not my conscience that ruins everything.. its people then my conscience.

well.. im not having the time of my life at the moment..
but after i go through sadness.. happiness is sure to come..
tomorrow..
i have a swimming assessment and drama assessment/performance..
wish me luck!!

goodnight and sleeptight
joona

lovely day

2009-11-22T13:29:00.006+10:00

"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."

dear readers,
today i feel as if have the whole world :)
i guess its because NO ONE tried to wake me up from my dreams..
& seriously it was like one of the best dremas i had in years.
so today because of feeling so good i decided to clean my room

firstly i cleaned my desk because i hadn't cleaned it in ages..
my closet; separate all the old clothes & small ones and the one's in good condition.. i think im going to donate some to the salvation army :]
next im going to wash all my teddies and big toys
probably after that i shall wash my blanket and pillow :L
then vaccum & clean dusty areas

well yeah..
my tests & assignments are almost finished :"]
& i guess i did pretty well at northshore test yesterday but during my science test..
my phone rang sooo loudly and it was like
"every morning in the middle of dreaming of you~ GET UP GET UP!!"
i was sooo freaking shocked and people kept staring at me.. =v=
hmm.. here's the list of assignment & tests i have left and when its due.

drama assignment/performance - Monday, 4th period
english assignment/presentation - Tuesday 4th period
flute audition - Wednesday, 3rd period
maths test- Wednesday, 4th period
HPE practical assessment; Monday & Thursday, 3rd period

everything else i finished then :]
for french we're only watching movies in french because we've finished all our tests and its apparently going to help our listening :L
&
for JTS i have to finish my spinning top and its sooo ugly D:
i stuffed it up.. but who cares cause i got A+ for everything else :]

finally after this week i can get stuck into writing my lovestory book :D
and also watch new moon & read more books -drool-
im feeling so happy right now :D
possibly gonna post another blog later :]

oh && i found a really pretty and cute photo of
TAEKYUNG <3>

ahhh <3
sooo lovely
well post laters
joona.

fun day ;D

2009-11-21T22:19:00.002+10:00

as constant as the stars above, always know that you are loved.

dear readers,

i woke up early this morning and go ready to go to camille's house :D
i had to go to her house since we were going to northshore together and since my mum couldnt take me because of church camille's dad was going to take us.
so we played around and i borrowed camille straightener and burnt my hand *i got a blister right now..* and then went to northshore..
i was waiting for someone.. but that person didnt turn up so i just walked into class and got ready for my science and maths test..

SIGH!! it was hard..
well, then afterwards i waved at the someone and camille tried to bug the person so i walked away and told her to stop it :L *but i didnt actually wanna go either*
so i wanted to go garden city and camille's dad said we could go after lunch..
so we went back to her place and played on the wii and then ate..
i ate soo much!! it was "shanghainese?"
:L then we went to garden city and i texted someone if that someone wanted to hang out with us but.. that someone didnt reply.
so i just walked around with camille thinking that someone must still be in class..
a hour later.. 1 PM
i walked into library with camille and started to read manga..
i was quite depressed cause i never got the text message reply.. and so while frustrating about this i fell asleep on the sofa in the library.. since im a light sleeper i woke up many times and each time i woke up i was sweating cause i had nightmares..
the nightmare was about "certain people" it freaked me out when camille woke me up at 1:20..
camille and i then wandered about again and abouts 1:45 we bought frozen green tea yoghurts but then the woman who was making was sooo bad at it.
while eating i decided to call that someone.. but that person didnt get the phone..
then i went all depressed and gave up hope and went around shopping..
soon my mum called abouts at 3pm and then we took camille home and then i went home and msned and changed my blog skin..

well im gonna msn now
goodnight pplz.

joona.

graduation day

2009-11-20T22:45:00.002+10:00

dear readers,

today was a good day..
well i had maths first and it was okay i guess.
and then at morning tea i was playing around then went to pcl class.
at pcl i talked and laughed with camille and then went down to convention centre.
at convention centre i talked to camille and stuff and yeah..
if you guys didnt notice i was very happy for some special reasons :D

i found the video veryy good but everything else was like so boring..
and then when camille and i were going back i was trying to run away from "certain" people so i ran down the stairs and rolled my ankle -its okay now- and etc.
went to no limits and it was practically deserted..
then later albert and tim joined us and this other dude to make it a normal no limits.
yeah.. but we had no food today but i didnt care cause i was STILL happy XD
then went to JTS class and marked the roll and then walked to bus stop..
whilist this happened my happy mood started to fade..
and then i went shopping with camille at garbo after studying in library and etc.
then we went to northshore with our easyway.. i was getting sadder and sadder.
during maths i was nearly dead until i remembered that next week northshore i couldnt go on the friday because of BBI? or BBC? anyways yeah.. so i decided to call mum and tell her i have to go tomorrow.

when i got home my mood got better :D
hehehe!~ that's why im very jumpy today..

iloveyous
joona.

HBD & ASSIGNMENTS

2009-11-19T06:37:00.004+10:00

dear readers,

good morning :]
&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ALBERT
i got up real early today for basketball training -maybe a bit tooo early-
so yeah.. im blogging.
i slept at 12:05am this morning :D
and i woke up at 5:00am~
so its 4 hours and 55 mins approx that i slept.
well, i dont feel tired but im seriously scared about school today.. i have my drama performance and i bet ms kuno is gonna fail me.. T.T
please god, since it is albert's birthday dont let me fail!! - relying on his birthday for my assignment XD-

well im gonna put my shoes on and leave will post later :D

LATER~

readers!! im had a extremely moody day =3=
cause its like im really scared for one moment and then angry and then happy then sad again then excited and etc..
but majority of the day it was either jealousy or pissed off.
most of the time the world doesnt go according to plan.. and this is what happened today..
well it could've happened quite a while ago but i trust people too much at times because its really hard to believe someone can betray me even though it happened heaps of times before.

my classes were all boring today and i got complimented in many of my classes but..
i guess morning tea and lunch were the biggest terrors.
at least i didnt fail drama TODAY~*flashback to this morning*
well yeah.. i didnt fail today which means i will fail on monday T.T

i havent done my northshore homework yet and my brother is graduating tomorrow :L
i dont know why but im not really that excited for either event..
well, gonna stop blogging for today..

hope you enjoyed..
joona.

HBD ALBERT!!

2009-11-18T23:34:00.002+10:00

dear readers,

so right now its 11:35pm
and in 25 minutes time it will be albert's birthday so yeah~'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALBERT in 25 mins
i dont wanna blog about my day so happy birthday song for albert.

happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you~
happy birthday dear albert!!
happy birthday to you~
HIPPIP HOORAY!!
:L i know i spelt it wrong :[

well yeah happy birthday albert

and thanks for reading..
joona.

english,french SIGH

2009-11-17T23:06:00.003+10:00

heart don't fail me now, courage don't desert me. don't turn back now that we're here.

dear readers,

today was a great day i guess :]
well i woke up at 6 am and was smiling my face off cause i had an awesome dream -drool- **please don't think wrong**
anyways yeah then i went to school for basketball training for BBC but then you should've seen my layups they weren't even layups :L i was like so epic-failing and then i finally remembered XD
it was a very tiring morning and camel rolled her ankle and then we had to go to I BLOCK staff room to hand in our pastry day forms for french :]

form; =3=
hpe; slept until teacher said "next week we're learning about human relationships!" i eyebrowed at sabrina XD
morning tea; told katy about my dream and went hype because of the heat :D & then people stared at me for wasting food.. sorry~
jts; stuffed up everything =3= who cares i just need a A
flute lesson; i didnt even play :L i pretended to play & auditions next week D:
maths; i have no idea what mr davis was talking about XD navigations? no, probability? no.. :S
lunch; T.T didnt get to eat lemonade icey-pole because some yr 9's bought like 69 of them..
english; whole class got into trouble and also saw some presentations.. mine is tomorrow..

wish me luck for english and french tomorrow.. both speaking..

a printscreen of my english seminar powerpoint

yeah.. i feel sleepy now && i cant wait for you're beautiful

iloveyou guys
joona

depressing

2009-11-16T19:02:00.003+10:00

And I can't get you of my mind, cause every thought I have is based on you.

dear readers,

today i wasn't feeling that good and thought it was just another one of my moodswings so i tried to hide it until i came home afterschool i was like seriously depressed and went on my bed and cried (personal reasons) and went unconsious.. =3=
when i woke up it was 6:35?
so im like O.O what happened to my mum..
and she's like you forgot to take your medicine so you like fainted.
she took it like it was nothing.. cause it wasnt that bad but.. i feel so weird.
well, my dizziness is gone and i took my medicine and MUST NOT forget to eat tomoz.

form; wasn't in a very good mood.
french; speaking exam PRACTICE! i laughed over the most lamest things.
morning tea; bought apple juice!! epic scene..

edowa: eww why the hell did you buy piss joona
joona: :D:D idk but i think this piss tastes like apple juice *sips*
edowa: ewww you retard :L
joona: thanks :D
yup hilarious~~

assembly; really sad.. wonder why.. =="
hpe; started to sing depressing songs to sabrina & another epic scene

boys: joona only swam 2 times this whole semester!!!
joona; D: dobbers!!
mr pike; but she swam better than you guys
joona; -pokes tongue-

lunch; went with lizzy to office to get cough medicine (cause poor lizzy was sick today) but the office lady didnt have any so i bought her an ice-block to cheer her up :]
drama; OMGOMG!! PERFORMANCES!!! well, god thank you~ i didnt perform :D

yeah..
my day was a bit tiring and stressful but i survived..
goodnight readers..
im gonna check my english assignment and read :]

iloveyous

joona

miss pro chef :L

2009-11-15T15:18:00.007+10:00

I could never comprehend why he loved her so much. Now I wonder why I had ever loved him.

hihihi readers,

well, today is an interesting day.
i slept in.. this is very unusual :L
and i showered and cleaned my room (like put my books in shelf LOL) and then i began to study.
my final copy of drama script and my english assignment..
but i got distracted and started to download music.. "you're beautiful ost"
my favourite song from the ost is: without words.. (girl & boy version)
then studied again and then got distracted by msn..
then studied :L & distraction..
my mum went out so yeah..
she was like at sunshine coast?

so i had to make lunch for my brother and myself..
i decided today's menu was gonna be noodles and spring rolls.
i was delighted to cook after a while of not cooking since i hadn't cooked for like 2 weeks *flashback* fire on joona's arms..*
that was scary..
well, today i didnt hurt myself but i made the kitchen a bit messy.. sigh..
and cleaned it.
for once my brother was like "it tastes good." i grinned and ate :L
& said to myself :D "im sooooo good at cooking.."
and then i covered my mouth and said.. "wow.. i complimented myself."
apparently my brother didnt hear this since he was playing kingdom hearts :L (for once its not basketball)
after i finished cleaning and watched my brother play then suddenly my mum came O.O
with MORE food.. i ran away from it..

yeah..
i didn't go to lifegroup today because of my assignments T.T
but still i dont regret since im at home facebooking & probs later dramaing :D
its gonna be awesome :]

&& today i'd like to thank god for this lovely day and that i didnt get injured and for vy because she's such a nice friend to "chat" to :]

thanks for reading..

joona

dramatic day

2009-11-14T17:57:00.003+10:00

You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.

dear readers,

just when i thought my life was peaceful.. people made it complicated again..
sometimes.. i just get too confused and get my feelings mixed up..
these days im having so many moody days!! i get angry at my friends for no reason and shout then the next minute im smiling like im the happiest person alive.
truthfully, i hate that feeling.
i starting to forget who i am and who i was and who i want to be...

today i woke up really late.. about 8 am.. so my mum got pissed at me..
i showered and got ready for church and guess what~ i actually wore a dress O.O
then i got my flute and bible and notebook and got on the car..
at church i was half-asleep until the main service.
i played my flute and for some reason i thought to myself " ooh~ im playing beautifully today!!" it made me feel a bit.. weird.

then i went to korean lifegroup and today we were playing a game where we make a title and write a sentence and then pass it to the next person and then the person writes another sentence to continue the story and so on..
then we had a bible/general knowledge quiz.
i epic-failed but since i got some questions right i got prize too :]
(sigh.. my bro got 1st place again T.T) so yeah..
then i put all the chairs away.. since no one actually bothered.. =="
but when i went outside after cleaning..
something dramatic happened. but its a secret
sorry~

i came home abouts 3:30 pm and started to play around with my lil sis :L
then i watched "you're beautiful" and completely fell in love with SHINWOO :D
he's like a new version on JIHOO <3 well yeah.. now im trying to finish my drama homework and english.. its getting abit annoying but i NEED to finish it so that i can continue to watch SHINWOO -drool- hehehe..
I LOVE K-DRAMA
well, i might blog another post later..

iloveyou guys <3

joona

miss lucky

2009-11-12T22:52:00.002+10:00

dear readers,

nothing facinating happened today..
im just miss lucky today :]
i thought i was gonna be a bad day cause i almost fell over like 69 times before drama (1st period) but i probably almost fell because of my stupidity =="
so.. yeah

form; boring O.O
drama; teacher said my drama script was veddy good and funny~ so hard to believe..
morning tea; ate my chicken chips and milk but apparently vy and nat found it funny?
pcl; got my subjects for 2010 and im almost finished with the card i need to make..
hpe; did clothes swim..(extension activity)i got a really good mark.. but its sports..
lunch; crossed campus and "discussed" my subjects next year :D heaps of people are in my classes and camille doesnt have many.. :O and she's not in ANY of my classes except PCL..
french; had very bad mood swings.. depressed.. annoyed then worried and suddenly hungry and then drooling :L cause we got our order form for pastry day after test.
power-up; i died.. the teacher made it harder since it was our last one :P

well yeah..
i played some games and stuff after this
to prove my luck~
and guess what i won :L
but in the end THE COMPUTER BEAT ME!!!
this proves my luck faded away..
well
goodnight readers..

love joona.

gibberish :L

2009-11-11T22:15:00.003+10:00

Sometimes a heart can't afford to be just friends.

dear readers,

sorry if you dont understand what i write today..
:L im having a gibberish day
i cannot talk / type/write properly..
so i'll just do my blog short and simple.

today :]
before school; ate cake & then got on a bus to school..
form; had a bad stomachache but then the teacher said we were getting out subjects for next year tomorrow @ pcl.. so im friggin excited :]
jts; making my KEY!! but its so friggin crooked and i cbf to fix.. sigh..
morning tea; sat next to camille because i thought it was sarah. i cbf to move so i just sat there..
french; monsieur michel got pissed at 3/4 of the class (inc.me) for not doing our homework :P
english;finished assignment =3= so played around with photoshop & laughed my head off..
lunch; basketball meeting & then sarah called me to come to d block for lunch =3=/
went up the stairs and just before sitting down people were telling me someone was behind me.. ==" but i was too slow..
maths; mr pedo was like.. okay get your homeworks out while i go get the atlas and i was like shocked cause i didnt do it.. (since he never marks) so while he was gone i finished all of 12A in 5 mins.. it was suprising and i paid attention :L suprising i know~
afterschool; got on a bus and then walked home and arrived early.. then i played flute!!

everyone wish me luck for my tests/performance/assignments..
tomorrow; french writing test.
friday; draft for english & drama due.
monday; drama STAND-UP COMEDY (one person show) performance T.T *theme i chose " valentine's day"* its gay cause im not funny.
tuesday or wednesday; english speech & french speaking test
and more for later..
i pray i wont fail.. cause i actually studied O.O
- i keep nerding these days.. its suprising me and my family & friends :L-

well goodnight readers and sweet dreams<3

iloveyou guys
joona.

apologies..

2009-11-10T21:03:00.003+10:00

People is telling me that you lied to me, and i know that, still i don't want to believe them..

dear readers,

please forgive me for not keeping my promise..
- i promise to blog everyday when i can - im pretty sure i could've blogged during the last 2 days but.. i chose drama over blogging T.T im so sorry~

well im put a summary in for what i did during the past few days and today :]

sunday
slept in and wished mummy a happy birthday~
then i started studying and stuff..
i decided to msn after breakfast..
i read jane austen novels afterwards and then mum said she was going shopping so i asked her to buy me dark blue shorts.. :]
-a while later- mum comes back with dresses =3=
i am totally shocked she knows my size and i actually like the dresses but i know i will never wear them.. sigh~ :L
&& i didnt go to swimming training or badminton :P
OH I GOT MY LAPTOP & WIRELESS BACK :D

monday
went to school..
had wind ensemble afterwards..
was so friggin tired..
came home turned on msn and tried to do my english assignment but i couldnt be bothered..
so i started dramaing and then ate dinner and drama & msned then.. about 10:40ish.. i started my english draft since i thought it was due on tuesday... i finished at 11:15ish..
then watched dramas afterwards facebooked :D

today
form; was tired.. but silent..
hpe; we're learning about growth and development and we're gonna learn about *eyebrows*
flute lesson; i had to leave hpe and go to lesson =3= it was okay i guess..
morning tea; bought the normal stuff from tuckshop.
jts; used the hole saw. it was scary but turned out pretty and also i started to make my key :D
maths; got results for maths assignment (the one i did at 3 in the morning and finished at 7 am)
results were okay.. but not asian enough.. =3=
lunch; friends and i decided to sit at d block because apparently there was gonna be a water balloon fight?
english; handed my draft in and started reading my blog(this blog) through the korean google :L & then started print screening random things..
home; daddy's birthday today :L went out to eat.. but i really wanted to stay home SIGH..
then ate KOREAN BBQ.. (sigh korean again =3=)

well yeah..
my life isnt really interesting these days but im satisfied.. cause its fairly peaceful ~
i laugh a lot these days.. and laughing is good for the heart and the ABS :D
hmm.. i think i might msn a while..
and then maybe drama :]

goodnight readers
and sweet dreams <3
joona

hihihi<3

2009-11-07T21:49:00.002+10:00

"People think it's holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go"

dear readers,

today was a fantastic day~
i went to church and had fun cause we had outdoor service..
i took heaps of photos and blew bubbles~
i'll upload tomorrow or some other time :D
i promise!
right now im watching dramas~
well, have a goodnight

sweet dreams :D
joona

quotes :D instead of blogging.

2009-11-06T20:58:00.003+10:00

dear readers,

my day was extremely boring today :L

so.. read these quotes instead~

"I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you"

"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do"

"Sometimes you dont realize how much you care for someone until they stop caring for you"
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met"

did you guys like it?

its all depressing right?

well, i like them.. because "it relates to me" -friends say i like things that relate to me-

hmm..

today i had no limits.. that was the most exciting thing of the day..

the most ANNOYING thing was that i got sprayed with water while crossing for no limits ==" annoying year 12's ..

oh and im writing this for liz and sarah and polina so that they dont forget!!

you OWE me's

lizzy: $2 && you owe me a diary =3=

sarah: $1

polina $ 1.50

enjoy the rest of the night :D

goodnight and sleeptight everyone<3

joona

busy busy busy!!!

2009-11-05T21:19:00.003+10:00

"True love will never fade unless it was a lie"

dear readers,

i apologise for not blogging yesterday..
i had a really bad headache and i was studying hardcore/ practising flute for the auditions i had today~

i was freaking out badly this morning and even had a nightmare of failing my french test and flute auditions..
today:
form; forgot..
drama; epicly failed..
morning tea; chatted..
pcl; made a card for the yr 7 orientation day
hpe; played my flute at the swimming place.
lunch; freaked out and went to auditions 15 mins late and i got in phew~
french; had my test.. awfully easy/hard.. hope i did well.
afterschool; basketball then pigged out

yeah.. i dont have much time for blogging today but i hope you read enough of my stupidness
love you guys
joona

dream a little of me

2009-11-03T21:48:00.003+10:00

dreaming of you ♫

dear readers,

today was a very pleasant day i guess.

except hmm.. i just had a neutral point of view everywhere i went..

well, later it turned into positive and then i got pissed but.. this is called "MMCD"

-major mood changing day :L-

yes.. very nice abbreviation :D

subjects:

form: going to dreamworld 03/12 & wet'n'wild 08/12 *very big grin*

hpe; test.. i probably epic failed.. didnt study for like 4 weeks.

morning tea; my hot dog was pink D: i found it gross! (although i love pink)

jts; teacher was away.. i talked to amanda and we did spelling instead of reading.. :D

maths; was satisfied with my mark.. but i got the easiest question wrong T.T

lunch; listened to ipod and then went to talk to an :D

english; typed "cinderella" then wandered around the class and gossiped.

afterschool; got pissed off at mason for being a b**c*!!! i will get revenge >:O

hmm.. interesting day ehh..

well, i had the weirdest dream & once again my dream was random..

strange dolls everywhere with 3D eyes..

they were freaking me out.. ><"

when i woke up i had one next to me ^^

then i slept in LOLOLOL :]

once again i didnt complete my french homework cause i dont have a name for the "random name" section cause.. i dont want to put a name there but the teacher was like for a better mark you need to put as much info there~ even if you dont have one :P

*flashback*

sigh.. camille tried to write it on my book but pfft.

no way!! gonna go now..

err.. goodnight

dream a little of me :D

joona

I'm just a girl standing in front of a boy.. asking him to love her.

2009-11-02T20:13:00.001+10:00

It's funny how a person can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces

dears readers,

its funny how people know me.. when i dont understand myself..

today seemed like a normal day.. but i guess many things happened undercover..

for once.. i was smiling brightly while walking to school listening to actual happy songs.

-today-

french; camel tried to write on my book cause the teacher was like.. write down your boyfriend's or girlfriend's name.. it doesnt matter if you actually have one or not.. it will get you good marks for french.

but i didnt allow camille to.. so yeah.. its blank :D

morning tea; arrived at F block later than i expected cause camille slowed me down by heaps.. =3=

assembly; died of boredom.. then got irritated by the yr 10's behind me.. they were friggin loud.

hpe; didnt swim today.. talked to karin about my love life.. karin started laughing epicly.

lunch; ditched camille at library and then went to f block and sat with karin & scabbed shani's fruit

drama; sattire again.. and one group parodied assembly and darcy who played mr marney was so hardcorely good.

i came home extremely early.. (cause i ran..)

then.. went on msn..

had a big chat with an.. after a longtime of misunderstanding.

yeah.. right now.. i feel a bit depressed.. totally opposite of what i felt in the morning.

:] i will put a smile here for you guys..

eventually i will smile brightly soon.. but till then.. you have to listen to my depressing view of life..

yours faithfully.

joona

new phone..

2009-11-01T17:48:00.000+10:00

dear readers,

so today i had a lot of fun..
i didnt go swimming or badminton and just stayed home and studied + msn and then went to sunnybank plaza and met liz and then went to lifegroup and had all sorts of fun :L

well, i've been thinking for the past few days what i wanted for christmas ( i know its a bit early but im desperate).. LOL..
so i was thinking maybe a new phone.. cause my N95 is dying since i dropped it this wednesday.. after speech day =="
so yeah... i might save up by myself.. or i'll get dad to buy for me since.. he's buying my brother another LAPTOP since he's going to uni ==" and im probably stuck with his ALMOST NEW laptop =3=
and i need your help!! to pick which phone :D
ps. they're both pink..

this one is called a LG KP500 COOKIE

cute name ehh :D i really like it :L

this one.. is called ELEGANCE 3

awesome name too :L

hmm.. similar to my N95

i like this one a lot too ;D

so please comment on my cbox and help me decide!!! T.T

and quickly.. so i can save up or ask my dad =="

thanks JOONA

my 50th post~

2009-10-31T22:14:00.001+10:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

gimme candy or i will throw organic eggs at you! (organic eggs: good for skin..)

dear readers,

this is my 50th post!! without changing the website :D

this is a good thing because it means i dont have many stalkers to stalk me :L

well today was a good day.. but it was really normal :D

woke up saying " TT" its only a dream~ i wish it was real.. " :[

then showered and got ready for church..

wore a dress then thought i looked girly so changed into jeans and tube top and vest.

then got my flute,bible,pencil case, notebook, mobile and ipod touch into my bag and got on the car and went to church..

at church praised god.. and a reverend from the salvation army came and talked to us.. (learnt that salvation army was a church as well as a fundraising thing.) after that i went to teen sabbath school and learnt about.. teenagers caring about their appearance and how this relates and takes us closer to god..

being me.. i got in trouble for day dreaming today..

after sabbath school i went to play my flute for the church orchestra and the other flute people complimented that my skills improved again.. and i was like TT" "i havent been playing for almost 2 months.."

and the people face went like O-O *i bet they were probably thinking.. i shouldn't have said that to her.. she's not gonna practise even more*

well yeah.. im so pro~ XD

i even got to play a solo after such a long time :P

then i started writing lyrics during the sermon and then saw mimi's missed call.. texted her.. she said it was a mistake then.. random things.. and esther spammed on my school diary.. but i found it really beautiful and a heart-warming message from her..

i ate lunch at church and this is always a hard task for me cause i pretend to have a small appetite :L

then after i started to play handball with a 5 year old cause he was pleading me and i thought it was cute XD

so i played with him and each time i won he always said LINES or FOOL or OUT.. ><"

since i was so nice i said.. " wow, you're so smart.. D: i lost.. your ace again.."

honestly.. i felt like a loser in front of all my friends..

so.. i wanted peace and quiet.. went to my private corner and hid there and listened to "when you say nothing at all"

then i had korean lifegroup..

i thought i was going to die.. but the student rep gave me m&m's to concentrate :L

went home and watched tv.. and ate and read manga and.. msned..

i am talking to SOMEONE right now :D

:L someone thought someone was the someone from yesterday but no.. XD

and i played facebook today and right now im earning points to buy the someone :L

goodnight and sleeptight

joona

sad to happy to sad..

2009-10-30T22:30:00.000+10:00

dear readers,

im having major moodswings today..
well i woke up bright and early..
and went to catch an early train and charged my go-card there..
i got on the train and went and sat down and turned my ipod touch music sound very loudly and played bejeweled..
there was this weird notice then but i ignored it.
35 minutes passed
YAY! highscore :L *joona checks the time*
OMG!!! AHHHHH~ I GOT ON THE WRONG TRAIN!! then i started to call people and my mum..
i thought i got on the wrong train.. and no one from bshs was on the same carriage so i decided it was time to cry.. (it was heaps more silent and dramatic than this..) then i started calling my brother for help.. he told me to get off at central station.
i got off at central and saw EVERYONE FROM STATE HIGH :O
i was very very ashamed when i saw this.. i mean i friggin cried and didnt even get on the wrong train!
i got to school just on time after running my pro sprinting..
exactly 9:20am. i arrived and form and the teacher marked the notices.

form; huffed and puffed and died from shortage of air..
maths; studied.. and randomly scribbled in my book

morning tea; drank juice and scabbed food.

english; almost fell asleep and then talked to kaveri and ella.
drama; learnt more of sattire and then talked about neighbours with my group..

lunch; NO LIMITS!! we did debating today and i was in the "kids" group :)

jts; had to start my jig all over again.. finished in 30 minutes.. realised i was so fast!
afterschool; went to the library and read manga with camille then northshore.

so my day was really really happy.. (camille always knows why :D) but got ruined at northshore.. i was just about to enter class for maths then i saw.. ALEX SEETO..
i got a heart attack and almost burst into tears.. i dont know why but he makes me feel sooo angry and depressed.
well, yeah and then i tried to cheer myself up but no.. wasnt successful and after like 5 minutes i walked out again.. and then i saw enlo and someone.. i got another shock and just sat down :L

right now i am making my own fan fiction website.. i hope you guys actually read and enjoy :)
maybe it would be my fantasy but.. hehehe i like them

jummp!

2009-10-29T21:39:00.001+10:00

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else

dear readers,
today was not the most delightful day but i was very jumpy and smiley..
i just have the weirdest dreams now.. it scares me and makes me smile.. and sometimes makes my heart race.. the thing is i cant compare my dreams and reality now.. because they're equally good :) god is giving me happiness right now and i can feel its presence but.. i wonder how long it would last.. cause.. happiness only lasts a little while :[

my day.
morning; got to bus stop early.. but the bus didnt come for 20 minutes :O i was so pissed.
form; bigger silence..
drama; i seriously hate myself doing comedy..
morning tea; changed.. then talked..
pcl; very boring.. and then the teacher let us chat.. :D
hpe; played basketball & tennis :]
lunch; laughed my ass off.. then went all sad and depressed..
french; slept.. finally woke up for last 20 minutes and ate cake :)
afterschool; went all happy and jumpy :) (camille knows why AGAIN) and power-up -muscle man!!-

haha~ idk but im extremely happy..
hope it lasts..
and i changed my skin again.. hope you like it
goodnight and sleeptight
joona

still in love with you lyrics

2009-10-29T20:53:00.004+10:00

she was all i ever wanted

she was all i ever needed and more
but she walked out my door
yeah, she went away

left my heart in two
left me standing here
singing all these blues

you left without a single word
not even "sorry"
it might of hurt worse to hear you say
"i'm leaving; goodbye"
but your smile still makes my heart sing
another sad song
i can't forget it, i won't regret it
'cause i'm still in love with you

we had fun under the sun
and when winter came
she'd be my angel
we were so in love
then she went away

left my heart in two
left me standing here
singing all these blues, yeah

you left without a single word
not even "sorry"
it might of hurt worse to hear you say
"i'm leaving; goodbye"
but your smile still makes my heart sing
another sad song
i can't forget it, i won't regret it
'cause i'm still in love with you
still in love with you

i don't know what hurts worse, baby
seeing you with him or being alone
on my own
i know he doesn't love you, baby
not like i did
oh, what's the point?
you're not listening anyway

you left without a single word
not even "sorry"
it might of hurt worse to hear you say
"i'm leaving; goodbye"
but your smile still makes my heart sing
another sad song
i can't forget it, i won't regret it
'cause i'm still in love with you

my obsession: stars..

2009-10-28T18:53:00.002+10:00

Why didn't I hold on to your hand?

No matter how much time has passed..

haii readers,

im getting obsessed with stars.. is that a bad thing? maybe i guess :L (note: joona has a R RATED MIND!!)
i changed my skin if you guys havent noticed.. :)
i tried getting a good blue sky with stars but couldnt find but gardens in heart shapes are good enough for me :)

today was a pretty boring day..
it was like speech day and stuff :L
i learnt something new too :D
albert's name is LE-BO! hehehe~ i will now continue to call ~~albert~~ le-bo that :L
aww.. i just found out it was meant to be eibo? but i decided to call ei bo this.. LEBO HEBO HOBO :]
hehe.. i found out when i was looking at the speech day assembly order thingy..

my day:
morning: slept in =3=.. went on bus.. arrived late ==" and VY GOT BRACES!!
form; silence..
jts; teacher and i talked about how guys looked sexy in white shirts and ties :D
french; died.. it was sooo boring and then i went sad cause madamoiselle baker is leaving next week?
lunch; randomly played around this includes.. filming "gee-snsd" dance
assembly; died..
afterschool; dropped my phone and ran like hell cause mason stole it >: O

well, im bored.. nothing more to write :L
talk to you guys tomorrow
enjoy the rest of this beautiful night :]
joona

retardedness

2009-10-27T21:42:00.000+10:00

LOVE LIKE THIS- SS501:)

hey readers,

HYUNJOONG IS NOW MINE!!! MINE I TELL YOU~
sarah gave him to me cause she didnt like his hairstyle.. but i can resist that :L personal experiences before.. (camille knows what im talking about)

today:
morning: woke up.. went on bus cause i was running late.. and then yeah.. arrived and sat down.
form; boring.. didnt talk much..
hpe: paid attention for half the lesson and then talked away with kim..
morning tea; ate and joked around with katy about AMEB grade 8 PIANO
jts; boring.. got scared of the iron soldering thing.. because it has steam.. apparently it was hot :O
maths; maths test.. =3= but mr. pedo came late once more.. and i got the easiest question wrong.. =="
lunch; wandered around with a calculator and replaced someone for dodgeball game and talked to katy.
english; heaps of writing i got pissed off.. the guy who sat next to me talked to himself.. cause i ignored..
afterschool; went home and msned.. and ate.. and homeworked.

my feelings are confusing.. i dont understand but who cares IM A TEENAGER :L (nice excuse)
well, today i had to fix enlo's blog again CAUSE BEN STUFFED IT UP!!!
im getting a bit annoyed >:O
:L well, im thinking of starting a blog fixing business..
open from 7pm-9:30pm from mon-fri
and costs $69 per hour inc. gst.
: D
best business ever but for now..
im gonna chat!

goodnight and sleeptight<3
joona

to do list

2009-10-26T20:55:00.000+10:00

prepare for maths test
ask john to check north shore
drama assignment (due in 3 weeks)
english assignment (due in 2 weeks)
practise basketball (tournament)
hpe test soon..
french homework
try to get laptop back =3=

LOLOLOL :D

2009-10-26T20:52:00.001+10:00

hi readers,

today was a very funny,painful and tiring day :D
as soon as i woke up i just wandered around the house and then slept on my mum's bed =="
then when i woke up again.. it was 7AM!!
i thought i was gonna be late so rapidly got ready and packed my lunch and went to catch the train :L
i caught the train and listened to music.. it was shuffling =3= and guessed what? depressing music lined up T.T
so then when i arrived to school i super walked and waited for everyone for 20mins and then finally sarah arrived -dies- and i became a bit spasm cause im nervous about something..

today:
form; boring as usual.. didnt talk too much today.. except i was spasming =="
french; apparently i told camille my mobile number was 04 69 69 69 69
morning tea; vy kept kicking my butt =3= and then stole my diary
assembly; i sat with vy and vy was staring at *eyebrows*
hpe; swimming =3= got a cramp all over the place almost every 5 minutes.. (probs cause i tried to show-off)
lunch; ate and then got form for basketball competition
drama; acted out commercials in comedy..teacher says our school performed inappropriate things.
afterschool; caught train with lizzy and sarah.. then tried walking in the rain with lizzy but mum came and picked us up and then we dropped off liz and i went home and msned + pigged out :D

well, im bored.. =3=
so.. yeah..
i fixed like 2 blogs today..
enlo's and albert's and finally updated mine =3=
so much time gone~! but at least i finished all my homework and everything?
LOL!!

well, goodnight and sleeptight everyone :]
and wish me luck for my maths test :[
iloveyou joona

...

2009-10-25T21:24:00.000+10:00

dear readers,

dot dot dot.. was my title for today's blog..
doesnt it sound depressing?
well, its meant to be.. :L

today i TRIED to sleep in but couldnt so woke up and cleaned up my room and then listened to sad songs on my bed..
but today i cried while listening to the songs..
SAD DEPRESSING KOREAN SONGS (liz says)
but i like them.. they have actual meaning in them and they relate to me..
after this i showered and ate breakfast..
then i decided to draw anime.. on my whiteboard with a red marker. (so random..)
soon.. i got bored and read manga.. then i completed all my northshore homework and then did my school homework then.. i msned.
i had a lot of freetime afterwards..
so i decided to choose a song for talent show finals.. IF I IMPOSSIBLY GOT IN..
then i fixed enlo's blog cause ben stuffed it up..
afterwards i ate lunch and then randomly wandered around thinking..
then i went swimming..
i timed myself.. and i beat my pb for freestyle :D
my mum and i went shopping afterwards and i bought heaps of snacks.
then i came home and fought with my brother over a packet of chips =3=
I WON :L and he got pissed*this is important*
i ate dinner and homeworked and msned.
while msning my brother still pissed at me.. came up to me with my history encyclopedia and i was like..

joona: oi, gimme my encyclopedia!!
john: laughs**
joona: wtf. crazy.. i thought you were pissed
john: laughs and points at the corner of book**
joona: what is that? stares at it**
john: puts it right at joona's face**
joona: realises what it is** AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH COCKAROACH!@!#%^%%
john: laughs his head off*
joona: MUM!!! I GOT COCKAROACH GERMS EWWW *fake cries*
mum: SHUT UP JOONA!!
the end.

yups.. apparently i was lucky enuf not to get cockaroach germs actually on me..
then now im being serious on msn.
D:
i dont like this. i dont like it at all..
joona goes spasm**
okays.. im gonna die..
byes
-dead-

albertism :L

2009-10-24T18:19:00.001+10:00

dear readers,

today was a different day..
well just 1 hour ago my arm was covered in fire.. (almost got burnt)
it was all hardcore.. i thought i was going to die.. and started to scream leaving the fire on.. (stove and my arm) so it was either save myself or the stove.. and then i just stood there thinking i was gonna die =3=
so my mum rescued me.. and i survive and i just need ice.. no scars :D -i thank god for this-
it was so amazing though.. the fire didnt burn me.. it was like standing there on my arm.

well i practically woke up at 7am this morning and ate a lollipop :L (grape flavour) and then i got ready for church and my mother made me wear a dress =="
so there i went to church and played around with everyone and i finally had an EXCUSE not to do orchestra. (my flute went to repair..:D) yeah.. so i played around with people and played the guitar and sang = praising the lord
hmm.. at lunch we had a huge watermelon!! i got a HUGE FAT + THICK piece!!!
also we had bible study group afterwards and we were talking about corinthians chapter 12 or 13 *the one about the love one..*
and the student representitive asked me..

student rep: joona, what do you think love is?
joona: uhh.. why ask me D:
student rep: why did you sit beside me then?
joona: fine!!! hmm.. i think love is .. AIR.
student rep: wow.. why do you think that?
joona: well, air surrounds us and we all need air and cant live without air . just like love..
students in class all clap**
joona gets embarrassed**
student rep: this is what happens when a quiet person talks after a long time!! something very good.
random person: i think love is love *laughs to himself*
quiet in the whole room**
joona laughs**
everything resumes**

yeah.. idontknow but "air" just popped into my head.. love is air to me. i cant live without love.
i realised LOL..
well yeah.. my faith is god is growing again.. and personally i experience fire on my arm~
:L that was suprisingly funny.
yeah~
right now i am msning :L
and just 10 mins ago.. i am a member or something on albertism?
and we are just part of albert's community..
-sound like fun ehh?-

yerp.. well
imma gonna upload some talent show stuff or maybe church stuff later :D
ttyls
or maybe goodnight and sleeptight<3
joona

mixed emotions

2009-10-23T20:58:00.000+10:00

I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind.

dear readers,

today was one of the days "survive"

i miss you..

just like the air that i breathe i need you,

with me. im not gonna lie.

came into my life.. i dont know why but i felt really spazz and confused.

i feel as if im forcing myself to let go of LOVE.. the whole thing but.. how come i cant?

Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.

i really think this quote is true..

-continued-

today:

morning; went to school early and practised singing with delinna

form; randomly talked..

maths; paid attention and then ate nerds and talked to polina

morning tea; ate chicken chips & strawberry milk (small) "the usual"

english; read many SNOWY stuff. e.g. snow maiden, snow princess, snow pea.

drama; i actually had to perform after 2 weeks of hiding in the corner.=="

lunch; rushed to no limits.. it was empty.. and i drew my family :) stickfigures ftw.

jts; stuffed up buffing today and screwing but still ill get an A :L

afterschool; northshore.. and pigged out before that.

yeah.. well vy taught me a lesson
some you loved once will ALWAYS be in your heart.
this excludes crushes..
:L
but it so true..D:
im not sure if i actually love someone yet but i just cant get over him..
i know its wrong to love him but cant..
this is an example of forbidden love =3=

"I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you"
i will live on with this quote for the time being..
well..
goodnight and sleeptight<3
apparently mum says staying on msn after 9pm is impolite.. =3=
joona

epic-failed.. TALENT SHOW D:

2009-10-22T21:20:00.000+10:00

hi friends,

today was very tiring.
i got up and then i was like "OMG!!!!!! TALENT SHOW =3=" -first time i didnt say 10 more minutes..-
then i got up prepared and chucked all my books outta my bag and drank milk and got ready to go~
i started to watch "jibber & jabber" (ABC KIDS) cause my sister was watching =3=
they played a boring episode o.o"
then i went to my bus stop and went to school.
i epic searched the d block area for laura to get a cd for my talent show thing.
and i couldnt find her anywhere D:
but i just predicted a nerd like her would be in the library and THERE SHE WAS!!

subjects:
drama; new girl came :L acted all nice XD and then laughed so many times~ graduated from clown school.
morning tea; looked at all the yr 8 level photos; laughed and teased people about having big heads.
pcl; i went to student representitive meeting and they talked about vertical form classes.
hpe; just sat there and skipped swimming. later got in trouble for playing music with my phone.
lunch; didnt like the sausage smell D: and then got freaked out cause of talent show
french; got in trouble for talking
power up; was extremely happy :) and cold i had a huge fan behind me :L

well gonna homework goodnight and sleeptight<3
joona

smile..

2009-10-21T21:36:00.000+10:00

what do you live for, when you live forever..

dear readers,
today was interesting.
also someone's pm on msn had my fave(sort of) quote in it.. I WAS SHOCKED -LOLing-
well, i wondered today.. has my feelings really faded away or am i just forcing myself to hide it..
either way they both hurt. SIGH~ well my life continues on boring..

today:
form; idk.. forgot.
jts; very boring.. wondered around.. i also got a new name the BUFFING MASTER!!
morning tea; had an extreme mood change, pigged out and yeah.. got selfish
french; learnt something.. but forgot it already
english; went to d block read folktales and almost fell asleep
lunch; watched talent show and then go into serious mood and got pissed at camille.
maths; played around with my phone.. and recieved something by bluetooth.. but let's forgive and forget.
afterschool; went to hospital with mum =3= and then ate subway :L

yeah.. then i slept and freaked out because of talent show/quest..
im gonna sing "looking through your eyes" ~~LeAnn Rimes~~ david foster version
im nervous but i hope many people come and support me cause im worth the $1 :D
hmm..
im feel sleepy again.
and im also freaked out and also wanna do msn.

well im gonna stop blogging for tonight
goodnight and sleeptight<3
joona..

freaked out..

2009-10-20T21:47:00.000+10:00

sorry, but i love you
dear readers,

today was like hell on earth for me.
i woke up at 3-4ish and started working on my maths assignment (given 3 weeks ago)
but me being a **** lazyass i decided to leave till the last minute.
i thought it would've been so easy until.. i actually made so many mistakes on my draft.
the scales were wrong the picture was retarded i have too much budget left and i practically had no trees.
yesh.. and i actually finished my assignment between 7 to 7:30ish and i was soo sleepy but i got ready for school and went..
i looked worse than a panda. =3= (eventually i wore my glasses)

today
hpe; coloured in my maths assignment.. practically ignored teacher -sorry =[-
jts; was using my freetime to make a star and cut in half. it snapped. =3=
maths; watched other people suffer :L and actually nerded out and laughed my ass off when mr davis did a really weird "hawaiian" dance.. he was like shaking his butt in front of the girls in front row (inc.me)
english; hardcore nerded for 45 mins and then couldnt stand it any more and fell asleep.
home; got home pigged out and studied then slept.. and studying again?

yeah.. im not in a very good mood atm.
cause i've got talent show semi-finals this thursday.. and i still cant choose a song =3=
which is killing me.
please help me god.!
yesh.. i hope he answers my prayers quickly.
well goodnight and sleeptight <3
joona

good day..

2009-10-18T23:05:00.000+10:00

dear friends,

today was a pretty busy but good day..
well first of all it was my sister's birthday party day
secondly. susan came over randomly. =3=
thirdly i went to lifegroup/ignite.

yeah i enjoyed going to ignite..
that's why i love no limits
i just wish i could go to ablaze and not go to boring korean church =3=
well. yeah
i have to go now..
ilys
joona
goodnight and sleeptight.

ps. sorry everything is mucked up..

my song and..

2009-10-17T21:56:00.000+10:00

~~i like you~~ :)
will i ever be able to tell you?

dear friends,

today i thought about many many things..(after i came back from church)
after a while of thinking and looking outside.
i fell asleep..
my dreams were just like a fairytale. i just wished for it to come true.. but i know dreams dont come true.. its either something better than a dream or something that just makes reality seem so disappointing.
well yeah.. at church i tried to play with my broken flute but it sounded like a train making tunes.. =3=
i sort of got pissed off with that.
my life is brightening up which is a good thing. but i realised so many things happened and im not a innocent kid anymore. which makes me feel a bit disappointed and regretting.
OH! yeah. i decided to exercise a bit more now :O
im like going fat and growing a stock of blubber :P
im turning into a short fat whale!! :D but i realised i grew 2-3cm :L
so happy :)

im addicted to a song called "when you say nothing at all - ronan keatings"
its really good and i envy the people in the song.
oh yeah..
and when i woke up.. the first thing i saw was the stars in the sky!
its such a beautiful night.

then i remembered the song.
"what dreams are made of"
have you ever seen such a beautiful night
i could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright.
:D im drooling at the sight of stars.

well i thought of this annoying sad quote today..
when good things come bad things follow/ its too good to be true. =3=
hmm.. its 9:55 right now.
and i think i shall sleep so i grow more~ tomorrow i shall study and finish my maths assignment then i shall plan an outing or get details for one then i shall think of what diet i should do or exercise..

byebye
goodnight and sleeptight <3
joona

i missed school =="

2009-10-16T21:00:00.000+10:00

dear readers,

oh em gee!
can you believe it? i actually missed school =3=
since athletics is such a boring thing to me NOW >.<"
:) i didnt participate this year.

well, today i didnt have maths,english,drama and jts.
so instead..
camille came over to my house and we left to the athletics place after 10mins. and then saw liz and sarah walking to the athletics place and picked them up while going there :L
then we sat there bored and it was getting more boring and ANNOYING when every other school was cheering.. and the BSHS stand was like empty.
then after an hour everyone arrived and then we started to play truth or dare.. and if we didnt answer or do the dare we had to drink a small cup of cordial WITHOUT water.
yes.. i drank 9 cups.
i seriously didnt like the question saying.. "who do you like jonah? *eyebrows*"
it was seriously freaky.
then i dared sarah and delinna to go to vy and say terry repetitively.. VY gave me the DEATH stare :L
then i was dared with sarah to sing gee in terry version (TERRY, TERRY, TERRY, TERRY BABY BABY BABY ETC.) i found it hilarious and then some older people got cranky at us and started saying inappropriate words XD
and i ran away..

yeah.. and then i pretended to be a spy by the end of the day and walked out of the athletics thing with katy and karin and of course camille.
then my mum took us to garbo and we ddred and i died :O
and then after 2-3 hours of hanging out
i went to northshore with camille and actually paid attention today because i wasnt sitting beside camille LOL
and yeah.. SOME PEOPLE were VERY NOISY.. LAUGHING THEIR HEADS OFF!! When some people are trying to actually study!!!
yep.. and then i got a really bad headache.
i thought i was gonna die..
well i cbf to blog more.
the end for today

goodnight and sleeptight
JOONA

normal and boring?

2009-10-15T22:33:00.000+10:00

goodnight ladies and gentlemen or other creatures that can read.

today wasnt such an exciting day.
ever since i gave up on "you know who" my life has been very boring ^^
its actually pleasant to have normalness once in a while ;D

so what i did today in my classes:
form: talked a lot.
drama: sat down and pretended to be a good girl and didnt volanteer to be a clown like everyone else.
morning tea: too normal.. except i had a fight about cookie monster turning into veggie monster =3=
pcl: normal.. actually did my work
hpe: did many fitness tests and got an awful headache.
lunch: felt hungry!! begged camille to buy something for the poor ^^
french: fooled around and got into trouble =3=
afterschool: kept running like hell and screamed ewww.. it wasnt a pretty sight..

yesh.. that was my day and i completed my english asssignment and went shopping and got credit for my phone
HURRAY!!
well yeah..~
im bored..
gonna chit chat
love yous and goodnight and sleeptight
JOONA

singing,laughter and smiles

2009-10-14T22:09:00.001+10:00

hi readers,

today was a very annoying day..
my eye was swollen ==" i had to actually wear my glasses.. 8-|
sarah was hardcore stareing at it..
liz didnt care..
camille had a R rated scene and then finally noticed
yups :L
it was so funny cause in liz's baby photo it actually had a baby that looked like my eyes today :P
it was hilarious

subjects.
form; handed in my athletics thing form =="
jts; seriously boring.. im starting to make new stuff.
morning tea; camille bought me strawberry milk! j'adore la camel :L
french; joked around.. and didnt pay attention in the last 10 mins.. (omg!! i need to do homework now~)
english; fell asleep and hid behind 2 chairs :D *guess what i did there -eyebrows-*
lunch; stole lollies off people..
maths; died.
afterschool; walked slowly =3= & went to pharmacy..

yesh.. very interesting..
for some reasons my blogs never match my title.
:L
hmm..
oh yeah~
im actually really happy these days except for the fact of my depressing eye.
hahahah~ and homework/assignments.
apart from all that drama.. im happy :D

well im gonna chitchat to an alien,retard,stalker and weirdos :L
goodnight and sleeptight
ily joona

rainy days should be kept under my pillow.

2009-10-13T21:09:00.003+10:00

dear readers,

today it rained.
lots of thoughts ran into my head and i was so happy to see the rain :D
i was about to walk in the rain until liz was like
"if you walk in rain.. your hair could turn dry.."
immediately i put an umbrella over my head. =="
and later i found out she was talking about acid rain =3=

well i was changing my skin for like who knows how long =="
so right now i shall briefly finish this blog.

form; chit chat with camille and got freaked out because of vaccinations
hpe; didnt go until the last 10 mins cause of vaccination
morning tea; pigged out :P
jts; my plastic thing broke
maths; survived.
lunch; told people i was a boy =="
english; got bored.. almost fell asleep..
afterschool; went home and msned..

yeah.. brief..
im going to sleep soon. but i havent finished my homework =="
stupid maths teacher..
never checks it and always says im gonna check it!! and yeah.. so apparently i BOB =3=
well im gonna say farewell to everyone on msn and do french homework and then maths T.T

au revoir
goodnight & sleeptight
joona

ps. like the blogskin?

:L

2009-10-12T20:35:00.001+10:00

SOME PEOPLE
JUST HATE BLOGGING DONT THEY?
I JUST CANT BELIEVE THEY MAKE A BLOG THEN :P

okay.. for some reasons i sound angry?
hahaha~
today was a strange day
it felt as if i really got over "you know who"
:L HIGHFIVE
im just awesome because of this
yeah..
i cbf to blog but just 1 more thing..

today..
french: hahaha i was really bad! day dreamed =="
assembly: got angry cause other people were heaps better than me at singing
hpe: died from the beep test
drama: i was a princess :L
liz freaked me out after school

that's why im still shocked
look at alberts blog cause i posted there today =="
cbf to type more on blogger
ill msn if you want :L
joona

sunny days :)

2009-10-08T21:19:00.000+10:00

dear readers,

my life is brightening up now~
its like a new chapter added into my life the happy and important part ;D
everything seems to be beginning though i just cant wait to see what's gonna happen in the end (just like a book)

today was great like i said :) camille and i know it as JACKPOT DAY :D
drama; ms kuno was in great mood :) and i didnt perform that bad today :D
pcl; read a sad book and cried T.T it was so heartbreaking a mother died.. and yeah talked for the rest.
hpe; fitness test thought i was gonna die but lol =="
french; i GOT A KEYRING FROM MR MICHEL~~~ OMG EIFFEL TOWER!! i love france~
power up; my arms and legs got killed and i didnt have to do butt move :D

i thought a lot about "you know who" today.. i think it's gonna be one of my last days.
soon.. he might not be in my heart. i dont know.. but seems like it.
well im a bit sleepy

goodnight and sleeptight
iloveyou
joona

gossip boy lyrics. (translated)

2009-10-06T21:04:00.000+10:00

In one day, I can’t even count how many times

I talk about you

That you’re such an awesome guy

How girls keep you in their line of sight

You’ve known it too

But how do you keep acting like you don’t

Your features which betray nothing from your seeming obliviousness

For some reason, without knowing, I fall captivated

**

I shouldn’t be this way

Always smiling around you, I feel like an idiot

Even with your words which hold no special meaning

Simply encourage the surge of my imagination

Could it be possible that you like me

If we’re already friends, would that make it possible for us

My heart which slowly grows bigger and bigger

Take responsibility, because of you, I can’t do anything**

Only when I come close to you

Do I somehow say something different

I become ill-tempered in vain

Don’t look at other girls and

Show some interest in me

How do you always act like you’re busy

I only want to show you my good sides

Somehow, it seems like I’m the only one who wants to receive love

**

I shouldn’t be this way

Always smiling around you, I feel like an idiot

Even with your words which hold no special meaning

Simply encourage the surge of my imagination

Could it be possible that you like me

If we’re already friends, would that make it possible for us

My heart which slowly grows bigger and bigger

Take responsibility, because of you, I can’t do anything**

Be courageous, Tell him, I want to see you

Can you not reject me

This is the moment I’ve been dreaming about

Can you accept my heart

**repeat

brown hair :D

2009-10-06T20:56:00.000+10:00

heyyoooo readers,

I DYED MY HAIR BROWN!!
finally my mum agreed and then i bought like a really expensive organic one and brought it home.
and i decided to do votes on msn if i should dye or not.
21yes - 12no
and so i asked my daddy and he said GODDD JONA!!! & then he was like talking and talking then he said ask your mother. and i told him i already did and so i went to bathroom and painted myself and hair :D
and yeah this is why im happy :)

today was okay i guess. but i fell asleep in most classes
hpe; paid attention for 20mins. then felt sleepy and tried to hide behind someone so i would be able to sleep.
jts; the room was a stinkbomb and i felt like vomiting so the teacher let me go outside and breathe 'fresh air'
so i went outside and saw a hpe class play basketball it was HILARIOUS (i saw many people i know there)
maths; boring as usual and i didnt pay attention.. scribbled random numbers in book.
english; got a new teacher. VERY STRICT and ANNOYING... actually teaches.

yesh that was my day well..
byes im gonna msn :D

goodnight and sleeptight
JOONA

HBD TO ME~

2009-10-03T21:59:00.000+10:00

I AM OLD :D

dear readers,
today is and was my birthday :)
it was really good :P (veddy better than my outing ==" no offence to anyone)

well my day was like this.
i wake up.
wander around (my family greets me and wishes me a Happy Birthday)
and then i eat my BIG BREAKFAST.
then i cried.. cause my grandpa called me FAT ><" ( it was offencive cause i dont really like him)
then i got ready for church and went to church

at church they made me stand in front of the whole church and they sang me a birthday song in front of a fake cake..(we use this cake for every birthday at the church)
and i paid my birthday thanks offering.. (which made me poor)
then did all the boring stuff..
ate lunch and then played around with helen..

i went home and msned for a while and then i killed my mum and my brother killed me. :D
then i went to pick-up my birthday cake and went to my grandma's house for my celebration..
my cousins were there so we went to funhouse and played.
then i went and blew my candles out and made my wish and gobbled up some cake.

i got more pressies!!
actually MONEY :P
then my daddy said since i love singing we should go karaoke
and then my family had a fight that i should be paying cause im the richest ==" but my dad paid :D
i sang for 2 hours and now im at home eating ice-cream and typing.
i lost my voice though :L

for some reason i felt weird today..
cause suddenly i feel a big burden on me.
like i have to act more mature and responsible SIGH
but yeah..
thanks to everyone for wishing me a happy birthday
i l o v e y o u

goodnight & sleeptight
joona

stuffed up =="

2009-10-01T20:11:00.000+10:00

dear readers,

my birthday outing was... HORRIBLE?
well it was bad.. and didnt turn out to be what i planned..
so i became depressed.

i also decided today..
that i should try to GIVE UP on "you know who"
i mean im just aiming for a goal which wouldnt come true.. (called wasting my time)
we're really different people and its making me really... EVIL?
so anyways. that is my goal at the moment..
TRY TO GIVE UP
and im sure that if i truly try it will be successful..
well
goodnight and sleeptight.
not in a good mood
joona

so sorry..

2009-09-30T21:58:00.000+10:00

sorry readers,

i am a bad, evil person T.T
i didnt keep my promise..
(to blog everyday..)
well i was banned from my laptop and internet (still am) but i bothered to sneak on at 10:00 at night for 10 mins but today i had a lil bit more time.. so eventually i blogged.
i AM SOOOO SORRY

well my holidays are boring and stupid..
i cant practice my flute or violin because they both broke.. well for my violin i just have to buy a string.. -3-
and all i can play is the piano and i had lesson today but the teacher for once didnt complain.. cause i practised. yup..
i cant wait till tomorrow..
BIRTHDAY OUTING..
but im turning old.. -this worries me-

well iloveyou
and i am going to msn for the next 10 mins and then go back in to the no internet world.
yours faithfully joona

i miss my money..

2009-09-25T20:32:00.001+10:00

when you walk away

you don't hear me say

"please ~~oh baby~~ don't go"

simple and clean is the way you're making me feel tonight.

hold me whatever lies beyond this morning, is a little later on

regardless of warnings.

the future doesn't scare me at all.

nothings like before.

ahhhh~~

so sad.. T.T

well today was the city outing day with camel,katy,sabrina and brian..

i was so excited.. i went early and met sabrina at griffith and bused it to queen st.

then we went to do our hair.. ><"

i just simply temporarily straightened it.. and guess how much it cost me!!! $35

omg omg omg.. i regreted for like the whole day.. ><"

finally met with camel and katy and brian and then sabrina and i ran away to look at clothes and shoes.

this happened continuously and we kept running away from the scary 3 musketeers :D

then i was arguing with myself to decide if i should buy the $100 dress that i fell in love with.

XD it was soo pretty to my eyes.

so then camille and i were asking brian what he thought!! (cause he WAS a guy~)

and i got a positive comment but i still could decide about 45 mins flowed by and i decided to buy T.T

i was depressed for the rest of the day..

it wasnt because of the dress.. it was because i was poor.. =="

i hate myself for wasting so much money!~

then i bought shoes.. (more money gone!!!) and so im expecting people to gimme money for birthday present especially my RICH relatives :P or im gonna fake cry :D -evil laugh-

well so many people asking me to go to outing =="

i dont wanna go to anything though.. im so poor.

so they're all gonna pay for me =P (i feel loved..)

well im gonna go scream at my giant pooh bear for money ><"

i know i know.. its evil and stupid but i want my money~~

well goodnight readers.

and sleeptight.

i'll be watching you -stares-

joona <3

dead.

2009-09-24T18:20:00.002+10:00

i feel dead right now.
don't ask why..
i know its stupid writing this when i wont even tell you..
but my instincts just tell me to type when im sad..

WHY DO I WANNA DIE?

OMG!! -flashback of memories..-

LET'S HOPE I DONT GO TOO FAR...

the end..

i dont know..

2009-09-24T16:54:00.000+10:00

hello readers,

today i guess i learnt a big lesson..
that before i judge who i like/love i've gotta be sure.
because im the type of person who would never like to lose or to go back on my word..(pride?)
so if i say i like this person..(even though i dont..)i'll probably force myself to like that person..
im not saying my situation right now is like that..
but im not sure.. that's all.
its funny how i dont know why i like him.. making me so unsure.
appearance? personality? skills?

did i force this upon myself?

i always believed that there didnt have to be a reason for true love..

but as the days flow by im getting distracted by those around me saying..
"you dont know anything about love.."
"its probably just crush.."
"you like him cause of his appearance."
"why the f*** do you like him? you should just go for another guy!"
"just give up"
"its just a momentarily feeling.."

sigh.. but the 1st one and 4th one gets on my nerves.
i mean they wont know if i know anything about love or not..
would they.. i mean most teenagers about 95% might not know what love really is..
but what if im the 5% that really do know what it is?
and the 4th one.. i dont know why the f*** i like him but its my life right? & i dont want to go for another guy.. its my choice and i decided i liked it this way! so piss off.

that is all.. i feel as if im raging. everytime one of my friends say that i feel as if they betrayed me and i feel like crying.. but all i do is slap them really hard and then with teary eyes.. i say "pfft. your so mean.." then i walk away.. when i do i feel pathetic..

I HATE BEING A TEENAGER!!
CAUSE PEOPLE THINK WE ARE FOOLS IN FAKE LOVE >: |

WELL IM NOT A FOOL ._____.

im getting really pissed right now on msn..
ttyls >:O
joona

quotes and poems and songs.

2009-09-23T17:23:00.002+10:00

my last words.

"I dont mind death..I'm happy enough that I met you during my lifetime."

joona

letter..

i love you.

i need you.
i miss you.

i cannot live on without you.

without you,

i'll simply be lost in this huge world.

i need your warmth,

your smile,

your voice,
your laughter,

i just simply need you..

you are the key to my heart

and my heart only belongs to you

i will always love you..

forever.
joona

THOUGHTS

each day i talk about you a little too much

that you are such a perfect guy.

I shouldn’t be this way

always smiling and laughing around you,

i feel like an idiot
even with your words which hold no special meaning
simply encourage the surge of my imagination..
could it be possible that you like me
if we’re already friends, would that make it possible for us
my heart which slowly grows bigger and bigger
take responsibility, because of you, I can’t do anything.
please don’t look at other girls

cause i become ill-tempered and in pain

am i invisible to you?
how do you always act like you’re busy when I'm around you?
somehow, it seems like I’m the only one who wants to receive love..

be courageous, tell him, I want to see you
~~can you not reject me~~
this is the moment I’ve been dreaming about
~~can you accept my heart~~

by joona (edited from gossip boy-younha)

hello readers,

i might shorten my daily posts.. (maybe..)

cause quotes and poems and songs are easier.

well today was very dusty.

that is all.. i hated today because the blue sky ( i love blue colour) was gone because of the dusty ORANGE sky.. ( i hate orange colour) it made me pissed off.

yep.. the end.

iloveyous. /joona.

expensive clothes =="

2009-09-22T21:43:00.001+10:00

i do not HATE anybody i just simply LOVE others more..

suuuup readers,

well today was not the perfect scene i imagined it to have been.
i didnt end up buying a dress cause.. all the friggin dresses i chose were over 100 bucks.
sigh..
and i didnt go to sunnybank or basketball today cause i decided to go to the city..
i am such a gayass.
yeah.. i killed liz and camille's legs for making them wander around so much ;D
well at least mine didnt die until the very end.

all i did today was..
go to library and read manga
liz suddenly walks up and shocks me
we read manga/manhwa
then we go to replay to ddr "difficult level" but then we play this 8 foot song.. and fail.
whilist this happens camille arrives and videos on her phone.. blackmailing us that she'll put on youtube..
then we go around 69 clothes shops for joona :D
after few hours liz and camille get hungry..
joona goes to check her bank..
liz and camille annoy the hell outta joona about buying them sushi
joona runs around all of garbo hiding from them..
joona sits in the back corner of borders :D
liz finds her..
then we go to city and go to giwawa aka. magicbox and then play
camille is so pro she gets everything..
whilst joona plays and almost gets them then suddenly they fall in the corner just before going into the hole..
joona gets pissed..
LOL
then we sticky photo and most of the poses are kissing JOONA ;P
yesh.. then we go to 69 shops again.
then joona spazzes about the expensive clothes
and then we go maccas for liz and camille ==" (they are serious food monsters)
and then we go ddr for joona and liz..

camille left and liz and joona headed for home on a 140 and then this big dude.. put his ass RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY and LIZ'S ASS!!
and then liz was like..
"-3- please dont fart.."
i was laughing my head off.
well my mum got pissed at me afterwards for not calling her ==" (her fault for making me charge credit with own money)
yeps..
and now this is all gonna repeat on friday with more people XD
but my legs are killing me ><"

ilys
goodnight and sleeptight.
joona

4 months already..

2009-09-21T19:52:00.000+10:00

Wish i could prove i love you
but does that mean i have to walk on water?
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go...

hello readers,
im dying~
its only the 4th day of the holidays and i miss him so much.
= ="
yeah.. i officially like "you know who" for 4 months now.. although it seems like 4 painful years =3=
i'm being so dramatic because its holidays and im dying of boredom..
i almost played DOTA today.. how bad is that.
but i played kingdom hearts 2 instead =="
(like the lyrics i have on the top of the page? its from kingdom hearts 1 but the song is so addictive.)
.______.

im planning to go on outing tomorrow so that i wouldnt die..
going to hair salon with my mother first then gonna go to garbo library and meet camille and then go to replay to meet lizzy and then im gonna buy myself milktea -drool- and then walk around looking at clothes and stuff for the material for our design thingy.. but whilst they do that im doing some shopping for some earrings and i dont know.. xD (im a shopaholic)
then eat some sushi and shop more and the bus it to granadilla park and play/watch my MACGEE FRIENDS play some basketball and then go to market square and shop for susan's birthday pressie and then sticky photos and then muck around at some asian clothes stores at market square and sunny park and then go home and msn while doing msn.. and then after practice piano..

D: im in very depressed mood right now.. :'(
my flute is like very leaky because the cork in my flute is sliding out... *cries*
but i desperately wanted to play an instrument so i got my violin out and played but the notes were all stuffed and i was tuning and some talked to me on msn while i was tightening my e string that's when i tightened it too much and it snapped. :(
waaaaaa~~~~ now i only have my piano AHHHHHHH!!!
so annoying..><"
stupid someone for talking to me on msn..
GODD!!!

gonna eat chuppachup ><"
my mood lolly~
well i still want that basketball game!! cause i wanna win my 5 chuppachups from each person :P

well goodnight and sleep tight everyone
ily joona

thoughts..

2009-09-20T22:26:00.000+10:00

hello readers,

sorry i didnt blog yesterday.. i thought i did but i apparently didnt.. but i blogged on albert's blog instead =D
so i still kept my promise.. i still blogged but not on MY blog ;D

so i wont give up. no, i wont break down..
sooner than it seems life turns around.

i was sort of depressed today..
thinking about my past and tried to remember the happiness and sadness and then i read my secret diary..
it was hilarious..
when i wrote about my crushes i always said they were TRUE LOVE.
hahahaha~ so funny..
but when i give up on then and move on.. they turn into nothing but a plain,simple but painful memory..

dot dot dot..
well just now i was wondering around bebo going into random peoples profiles and stuff
and i discovered something..
it might be a true thing someone hid from me..
and if it was true. she lied to me.
and that would mean she hurt me.
i know that in this situation it would've been hard not to lie to have my friendship or for war to not start but she lied.
if this isnt true or its just a coincidence.. im sorry.

well.. this huge epic hardcore discovery just ruined my night..
goodnight and sleep tight readers

ily joona

epic nerding day sort of.

2009-09-18T21:39:00.000+10:00

heyy..

not writing much cause i have a holiday plan to follow..
well today..

maths; did mathletics got everything perfect :D felt nerdy.
english;had retirement party for ms wavik.. and watched simpsons
drama; did nothing and then my yr 9 friends raped me.
jts; got a+ for my special keyring..
northshore; very epic.. im failing.. totally different from school = ="

dot dot dot
i really dont want to let him go..
but when i think that would be the right decision.. i feel heartbroken..
if only he would decide for me.
if he wanted me to let go i would even though it would hurt.
but if he wanted me to wait i would wait until death.
well possibly ><"

i keep waiting for him..
its just like calling him and he picked up and told me that he would be right back then put me on hold for a million years.. i would probably trust him and wait till he does come back.. even though i realise that he wouldn't,,
the day when i give up on him would be the day that the pain he gave me was bigger than my love for him..
when will that day be?
i sense that it would be very soon..
and i dont want that to happen..
it would be so funny if that happened on my birthday..
cause that would be the worst bday of all time..
sigh~ why am i being depressed just now?

well anyways
goodnight readers and sweet dreams.

oh and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

idk..

2009-09-17T22:00:00.000+10:00

still miss you ~

today i did a lot of thinking..
i thought this and thought that.
i guess i need to have some secrets now.
from next term i will be nerding.. sorry to those playful retards of mine.

well today was epic
drama; watched 48 shades of brown.. our plays were heaps better & sexual
pcl; camille and i actually worked. we finished our assignment song.. & performed it
--
dont be sad
dont be mad
dont be bad
or your mama will turn into your dad

dont be sad
do your blog
phone a friend
eat something and have some more

BOOM BOOM BOOM
ABCDE
be happy like an bumblebee
--
like it?
its in the tune for ABCDEFG~ (alphabet song?)
yeah..
hpe; i was playing with my basketball then the teacher raged at me.. = =" so after that we played handball/basketball :D i played so hardcore~ scored like heaps.
french; kept watching that cleopatra mission movie.. but we're finishing next term =(

afterschool..
was um.. um..
very very very very very very disturbing in everyway.
camille,karin and i.. and i guess katy.
we were meant to play a game with you know who and friends
but camille and stuff were very... idk what was with them
so we played our own game.. and then i kept harassing camille..
(not my fault.. she had the basketball)

yesh.. today was very not fun..
especially when i got depressed afterschool cause SOMEONE got injured and i couldnt help at all..
that is how close i am to him..
i just realised that.
making me feel really really weird and feeling not important to him.

well, i need to think about what im gonna do about that.
and i have to complete northshore hwk :D

goodnight and sweetdreams

RAWRR
joona

my stupidity

2009-09-16T19:46:00.000+10:00

i am a idiot!

today was just one of those days that god wouldn't let me tell camille things.
;O like whenever i tried to tell her something about a someone..
that someone would appear out of the blue D;
i wasn't saying anything bad.. LOL i was telling her what me and somebody talked about.
that happened like for the whole day..

example below.

joona: camille, i realised i didnt really have a precise reason why i really like "you know who"

camille: but most people are like that.. ><"

joona: but but.. when someone and i were talking yesterday.. that someone said that maybe i just want to be loved by somebody.. or something along the lines of that. sigh~
it so funny.. guys and girls opinions are sooo different.
camille: LOL..
joona: do you think someone looks ugly?

camille: he's okay i guess. he's better looking than eww.. if i rate him out of 10.. hmm.. 7/10

joona: hehehe.. you know who's 100/10 for me =D
camille: hehehe.

joona: i told someone that he looked like "you know who" a bit..then i realised maybe not..

camille: haircut? xD

joona: yeah T.T haircut..

camille: hahaha~ look pro-starer walking past.

joona: LET'S STARE BACK @ HIM and maybee he'll do weird hair thing bahahahahas

-conversation continues.-

joona: *sucks on lollipop* YOU KNOW WHO IS not UGLY HAHAHHAHAHA~ (capital letter one is saying really loudly and lowercase is like a whisper.)

-you know who walks past-

joona: *gets shocked* omg~! i bet he heard me say he was ugly T.T NOOOOOOO~~~~ its all wrong!!

camille: hahahahhaahhahah~

joona & camille go to form..

yes.. it was one of those unusual and shocking days.
well @ classtime...
jts; finished amanda's keyring for her (so pro @ buffling :D*proud face*) & i didnt finish mine ==
french; counted upto "69" in french and watched an awesome french movie about someone and cleopatra.
english; jess made me think sick thoughts and etc. T.T she brainwashed me making me think wrong. eg. i was trying to say wrong but i said long O-O
maths; didnt pay attention.. fell asleep several times.. and tried to draw but got bored.

yeah.. and i got home and slept for like 30 mins?
and piano lesson.. i was half asleep
korean=asian
korean & asian piano teacher raged.. >:O
but joona was tired and ignored.
teacher does scary korean cheek pinching..
i got pissed.

then when this all finished i was really angry and cried.
i was hugging my HUGE winnie the pooh doll and randomly yelled at it..
xD yups strange things happen when i cry.

tomorrow is going to be a BEAUTIFUL DAY :D
i have drama first up and ms kuno says we will be watching some comedy videos :)
and then i have PCL which will be okay.. cause i will have camille to talk to..
HPE is going to be indoors :D -gonna suggest to play b'ball-
french last but going to finish watching awesome movie ;)

well.. im going to finish downloading maple..
cause lizzy wants me to play :D

goodnight & sweet dreams

ily joona

my adventurous day..

2009-09-15T20:31:00.001+10:00

i am so retarded.

hi readers,

my life is so embarrassing O.O

and hilarious~

well, today was a tiring day because my eyes just didn't open so i was lying in bed until 7:oo AM

then all 4 of my alarms rang.

1.phone

2.my piggy clock

3.ipod

4.my normal clock

so i decided to ignore them..

for the 1o seconds that passed by i was thinking to myself..

"you've got to get up! or it'll be asian parents and then die...!!"

-break-

"who cares.. gonna sleep for the WHOLE day...

-silence-

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! i have to wake up!! its a school day i just ADORE ~~lunchtimes~~ classtime. *eyebrows* i really need to go to school and meet my "friends" hahahahahaha!!"

yesh.. that's how i woke up this morning.

you can just tell that i live every day like a comedy..

hpe; watched a video.. the video showed ~~fat~~ big people's very SPECIAL bellies.

jts; gave up on VERY LOVELY keyring.. and im doing my nametag.. again..

maths; stupid. as soon as i arrived.. the teacher gave us assignments.

english; ms wavik was away.. i shoved michael off his seat ( stole it :D)

LOL ;)

my life is VERY facinating..

at lunch sabrina,karin and i were chatting and laughing our heads off!

sabrina and i are now family along with karin..

JOONA- WIFE/MOTHER/MRS.SON ; speaks her own language and has many boyfriends & girlfriends (aka.. cheat!!) & has many PETS :D

SABRINA- HUSBAND/FATHER/MR.SON ; very strict to FEMALE.. and has very low self-esteem.

KARIN-SON/DAUGHTER/FEMALE SON ; has a very original name & won't let his/her parents check her/his pants so apparently the gender is DAUGHTER + SON = DAUSON.

yesh.. we are very very WEIRD but AWESOME

it was very hilarious..

AFTER SCHOOL

liz and i were walking down the bridge and stuff so we didnt have to walk a lot.

so we were walking to the NEW bridge and met mason and that other retard..(richard)

our conversation:

mason: hahahaha~ you're weird you play games just like this retard.. *mason points to richard*

joona: *confused face :S * oh~ you mean maple!!!

mason & richard looks confused..

liz: you should play again joona!

joona: aww..

liz: i'll train you till level 30 :D

joona: *excited look* okay!

mason: what level are you? *to liz*

liz: eighty-blah blah

mason or richard: i have level eighty-??? and i have one hundred and blah blah blah

joona: starts to ignore..

liz: joona's highest level was like 12 or something XD

joona: GAME FREAKS!!!! (keeps saying it.)

-you know who walks past..-

*joona notices.. but still continues..*

joona: *finally stops*

LIZ & JOONA CRACK UP

joona: omfg.. im always doing something embarrassing T.T

liz: hahahahaha~

mason or richard: what's so funny? me, being a game freak?

liz: *starts to tease joona* & *runs away*

joona: *yells no~~~~* & *chases liz*

yep...

and i should now do my mathletics homework.. =3=

goodnight and thanks for reading

never give up hope~

yours truly

joona

BUSY BUSY OVER~

2009-09-14T18:30:00.001+10:00

heyyo~

i am so happy now!!

i realised i have no more anythings to worry about for this term.. except O.O maths homework!

LOLOLOL ;D

except for that i am pretty happy~

today was a miserable day..

you see, i arrived to school pretty late?

normal time i guess.

and then i had a cold but I had auditions for TALENT SHOW today..

so i was freaked out.. (cause i didnt choose the song yet.)

Sabrina wanted me to practice so i went to D BLOCK (my form class)

and started to singing for sabby..

then my camel finally returned from her very sandy desert.

yes. then i was like GODD!! im seriously gonna give up on "you know who" today.!!

then i was blabbing on about this.. SERIOUSLY

and then YOU KNOW WHO.. walked passed.

joona started smiling like an idiot... ><:"

apparently camille didnt see. ( i have special powers.. i can see people!!)

yeah.. then an came and we started talking about somebody..

-i think everyone thinks im the evil one.. (i may be) but im pretty sure for this case im being mean T.T-

french; the test was pretty hard but otherwise everything was fine.. the teacher also said that from next year BSHS would have form classes mixed with 5 people from each grade UNLESS! there are enough parents to disagree to this.

personally.. i like it in a way~ NEGATIVES & POSITIVES but i guess being ME i have more POSITIVES.

assembly; time flowed quickly

HPE; hardcore singing/ warming-up for talent show.. WITH sabrina..

talent show; got freaked out by the MANY people watching == (STUPID ME) yeah..

drama; ms kuno was smiling and looked very pleased at me ;D

yeah.. overall my day was busy!!

i ate pasta~ yummy~

D; i feel fat!!

but who cares it was yummy..

anyways.. i will be doing MATHLETICS (maths homework)

but yeah. :D

write more tomorrow~

ily joona

ps. a lot of people are talented at singing @ BSHS i felt like such an amateur

busy :(

2009-09-13T20:19:00.000+10:00

good evening readers,

today was a very messy day..
because i was spring cleaning my room~
while i was cleaning i found photos from year 5 and books from year 5-now.
when i compared my yr 5 stuff to my yr 8 stuff i was laughing my head off~
cause it felt as if i was smarter in yr 5 than now.
sigh~ i wish i had a time machine..
i wanna know where it all went wrong..

well tomorrow is going to be really really busy..
i have french test first up :d
then i have assembly and HPE :'(
then i have TALENT SHOW AUDITIONS T.T
after that i have to perform for mrs kuno again :(

SIGH~
and i injured myself at badminton club ><"
i was playing hardcore and then i was showing off and slipped..
because they like polished the floors :(
and yeah.. my arm feels dead so does my ankle..
well, i better study..

thanks for reading and goodnight!!
ily joona

ps. im eating watermelon chuppachup right now~ <3

2009-09-12T15:42:00.001+10:00
when i see you..
i keep dreaming a dream that can never come true..

what's with me?
im being very pessimistic..
my theories..
all hurt me now.
you know how i say "when i have nightmare i have a good day and if i have the best dream ever i have the worst day.."
these days i have the best dreams of my life..
i really dont want to wake up from it.
when i do have nightmares i cry heaps and heaps and i turn so depressed but these days i keep waiting for those dreams to pop out of nowhere or i just want to sleep forever with my happily ever after dreams.

im really moody right now..
i bet its because i watched "1 litre of tears" again!
but i really wanted to cry my head off..
i dont know what i want to do anymore.
i keep losing hope.. and my tears continue to fall when i look back at my diary..
but there's this quote.

Forget about the past. If you keep looking back, you won't be able to move forward. Walk three steps forward, then two steps back.

sometimes.. well most of the time i forget about the happiness in my life.
and it feels like im stuck in the bottle filled with tears and heartbreaks.
maybe this is a sign from god.
maybe it means "you know who" isnt who im destined for.
he isnt the path i have to go through with.
this is all possibilities and maybe they're right.
but god gave us choice.
and i have to make that choice..
for a few weeks.. i kept thinking about it.
but everytime im near a conclusion the atmosphere and my mood changes.
then i have to think it about it all day and night, every hour, every minute and every second.

i have no idea what to do.
but if death does approach very soon
im probably gonna wish and pray for a dream
a dream that i would be able to be with you forever.
till that day..
my life is going to be random..

It's okay if you fall.

You can just get up again.

i shall not lose hope till the very end!
see, im sooooo moody
@ the start i sound so depressed and while typing my blog i actually remembered happiness.
well, thank you for reading..

arigato<3

joona

2009-09-11T20:36:00.000+10:00

la la la la la ♪

heyyo ^^
how was your day today? (reply in cbox)
mine? almost like a fairytale =D except for the bad headache..

when i woke up today
i had blood all over my hand .__.
why? i was nosebleeding.
but i didnt get shocked or angry..
because i had the best dream of my life (i think)
i really didnt want to wake up this time.
but i had to... BLOOD!!
then i got some tissues and my piggy clock started to make noises for me to wake up O-O
somehow.. i explained to my mother that my brain felt like it was going to explode and apparently i looked like a panda.. so i persuaded my parents why i shouldnt go to northshore today.
my dad agreed.. (cause he likes to listen to me argue..LAWYER..) and my mother got pissed. (asian)

i went to the bus stop early and saw a dead cat. .sophie almost believed that the cat was fake =3=
then i went on the bus about 8:20? because we were waiting for jess.
then i arrived late and delinna and sarah.. said that everything i do is about YOU KNOW WHO..
i didnt want to believe it was true.. but they apparently had evidence.

maths was boring. as per usual. *eyebrow*
then i went to eat?
i wondered around the school to look for where english was and finally discovered Krishore and followed him. he was saying one of his stupid pranks again.. "girls have to go to J Block NOT G Block" and so i said i was a boy.. ><"
yups. when i arrived MS WAVIK came with a very STYLISH poodle look alike hair-do.
(must be in fashion now ehh?)
well, she told us that she was retiring and that we were going to have a party.
but i suddenly felt this tinge of guilt... like i did something wrong to make ms wavik leave.
T.T
then i went to drama and MS KUNO made me and kinjal do our play
and i was great? but i just need to improve a little.
people loved my PHIL ♥ JACQ scene the one where i act drunk and fall over heaps and then JACQ (kinjal) drags me out of the scene.

yesh~ so i sprinted to NO LIMITS and DOT DOT DOT.. SO MANY YEAR NINES
O_O very shocked but yeah..
people played wii and stuff and suddenly samuel got a nose bleed (NOSE BLEEDING DAY?)
and so i ran all the way to the library to get tissues. ==
when i came back.. liz had already provided samuel with tissues.. =(
my tissues were a waste!!! >:O liz.
JTS was unusually boring. so SKIP!!

i went to the bus stop and saw.. someone i didnt want to see.
and that person was going on the 130..
so i didnt go on that bus..
i waited for the next bus and went home.
then i slept till 6pm.
and ate dinner
then.. i practised survive for the talent show audition on MONDAY
but.. i wasnt satisfied so i might change the song.
yeah.. that was my day...

ily ♥ joona

hehehehe ♥

2009-09-10T20:30:00.000+10:00

hello ♥ chuu~

i am a happy woman or man?
well, today was an awesome day XD
but i didnt get to D block or A block much..
i hung out in veggieland..

hahaha~ well
i bought chuppachup in the morning!! -told you i was craving for thems..-
then i gave one to sophie and one to camille
and i had 2 -drool-
then camille and i were singing "survive" comedy version
and sabrina was cracking-up =="

i had drama first up and ms kuno was away (yay!!)
but we had ms wavik look alike nickelson..? (idk how to spell =P)
so, she was like bullying all those naughty kids in the class~ i guess i am a good girl/boy cause she let me and my row go out first =D (the only reason i liked her..)
then i changed and bought strawberry milk (seriously addicted)
and gulped the whole thing down (which made me forget to eat my apple)
went to PCL but had to change classes because of EXAM BLOCKS
went all the ay down to J BLOCK and talked about ghosts with camille because mrs chenery was being nice and let us have freetime~

HPE was normal..
not the best thing in the world but enough to survive.
and yeah i ran like a boy..
i had french last and i fell asleep... WHILE we were doing practice test. O.O
im such a deep sleeper~

then after school i skipped POWER-UP
and ran to change again and played basketball?
-actually i lied down on the courts and stared into the sky..-
then i started to sing survive again!!
-how many times do i sing this song-
and then karin and i were doing a parody~

lalalalala~
then we went to 711 and bought noodles and ate it
YUM YUM
yeah.. then i stole some of katy's doughnuts and it was really tasty.
yups..
i went home soon after that and ate noodles again O_O
im gonna turn into NOODLE PIG
XD

yesterday night at 9:09pm
i made my wish.. it only happens once a thousand years for 09/09/09 9:09pm to come..
this is why im hoping it will come true!
MY WISH MIGHT NOT BE OBVIOUS!~ PFFT.. I COULD BE SOMETHING TOTALLY DIFFERENT!!! eg. hmm.. money!!
yeah money~

LOLOLOL i choose money over love and love over friendship?
that is not right!~!

well, goodnight~
im going to read ~~mango~~ manga.
ily♥joona

ps.너를 사랑해, 사랑할수 없을만큼..

my wish for 090909?

2009-09-09T19:39:00.002+10:00

so at 09/09/09 @ 9:09pm
what are you going to wish for?

everyone knows mine already =="
but you know never know it might be something totally DIFFERENTLY
i bet your saying "tut tut.. VERY UNLIKELY"
yeah yeah... ==

well camille and i were singing
survive- gabrielle
i really like this song!
THANKS PENNY~

yeah.. it really matches me
and then went i was walking to bus stop i like changed the lyrics REALLY slightly
and sang to CAMILLE

---
i dont want to talk about it
it makes me want to cry.
everytime i pour out my emotions
i feel emptier inside.
i dont want to play it like im not in love with him
but i'll try, even though i do.

still..
miss him
just like the air that i breathe
i need him, with me im not gonna lie.
i cant imagine my life without him
but i..
suppose i will survive.

---

and then i was like its JUST LIKE ME!!
yeah.. this song is sad T.T

lol
well, i better stop blogging
AND DONT FORGET!!
WISH; o9o9o9 @ 9:o9pm

o9o9o9 :D

2009-09-09T19:35:00.000+10:00

heyyo,

its o9o9o9 today aka opposite day!!
i like totally didnt do many opposite things cause i forgot like after everything 1 hr?
and today i was like all nervous because of the "basketball game"

well,
i went to 7 11 before going to school =3=
last night and today i was like craving for chuppachup :D
i bought 4! strawberry,mango,blackberry?, and cola (for sarah)
i was like holding up the line searching for apple flavour and peach..
i found peach and cream but not apple >:O so i didnt buy peach.
then i gave out my chuppachups :( -bad choice-

i had JTS first :D i like have to make the backing plate now.. ==
and then my REALLY REALLY SPECIAL KEYRING WILL BE COMPLETE!!
after jts i like crossed the bridge (godd. so annoying!! we have to walk a lot..)
i saw EVERYTHING on the bridge XD then i met up with camille and stuff.
we had french and apparently i didnt learn my numbers up to '69'(yeahyeah, my french teacher is awesome!) then ms wavik was like NOWHERE TO BE FOUND
so kim,kaveri and i just went to library.. + i hardcore read mangas there and like finished 2 books :( then i was bored and camwhored... with People.

then i changed to sports uniform during lunch and camille,sarah and i all dragged delinna up the stairs? then i was like :S <-- confused because i didnt know why..
and then sarah was like.. DELINNA wants to see "you know who" *eyebrow*
i felt a tinge of weirdness but i helped.
then i played around with the b'ball at D block and i talked to AN and CAMILLE and STUFF..
i think i went peach?
then darcy embarrassed herself by hardcore pose dribbling?

yeah..
i went to maths and daydreamed.. =="
but then i got thirsty and drank all of my strawberry milk :D
soon i got bored again and ACTUALLY DID MY MATHS WORK..
yups.. totally weird~
then i sprinted to B'ball courts ;)
yeah..
i played by myself until..
you know who!!!!!!!!!!
runs down the stair thingy?
and then miraculously sees katy :D
yes.. stupid me.. then an arrived and camille and stuff

you know who apparently brought his friends :O
i was upset =3= *i can predict future~~~ *-ghost noise-
then we didnt actually play serious game..
and i was really upset so i laughed like a maniac again ==
(its a habit now.. i mean i laugh when im upset ><")
yeah.. i tried playing a few times but it felt soo sooo sooooooo boring O-O
i expected like hardcore running..
so i regreted playing boys vs girls

yeah.. then you know who left..
i wanted to go home too.. so i could actually do piano lesson..
but i stayed because of my depression and talked to an and camille
and yeah..
when an left camille and i were singing and soon we had an idea because dylan was laughing ><
i was singing and camille lipsynced.. SIGH!!

yups and then i went home..
and im just tired and i feel very unsatisfied i mean I SKIPPED PIANO FOR THE WORST GAME? well not the worse ;]] but it was boring..
and i didnt even get to WIN the bet :O
i really really really really wanted my chuppachups!!!

well im gonna mood eat POPCORN!!
goodnight and
dont forget to make a wish at 9:09pm today!!

o9/o9/o9 @ 9:09pm A WISH COMES TRUE!!
IM DEFINITELY WISHING XD
joona <3

bahahahahas♥

2009-09-08T19:06:00.001+10:00

suuuuuuuuuuup,

sorry about yesterdays *looks back at yesterday's blog* VERY SORRY bout yesterday's DEPRESSING blog..

IM EXTREMELY HIGH TODAY >
im can be sooooo moody like sad for one moment and like saying im gonna give up and stuff.
the next moment ill be like YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im soo happy ~ i never giving up~..

yesh.. that is me~
I FEEL SPECIAL!

well, today's story.

this morning i was very happy!
and i was happy and happy and happy ( i think you get the point..) and
i went to form.. the teacher was like reading the notices then she said something about FASHION DESIGN.. and i actually stopped talking to CAMEL and listened.
after listening

joona: OMG!!! *slaps head* i forgot to bring sketch!!
camille: what? hahahahaha~
joona: i knew i shouldn't have been hyped up today!!
camille: lol
joona: BUT who cares~ *stays very HYPE*

yeah.. i was laughing happily today..
i thank god and the rain for that GRINS
HPE FIRST..
i drew random stuff..
and then JTS :D was veddy fun and i got A for my tin box... (im not satisfied.)
at maths.. i was trying to nerd but i pressed weird stuff on my calculator..

joona: *puts hand up* ITS NOT THAT!! ITS WRONG!
other girl: no.. its right..
mr pedo: its correct what did you get?
joona: RANDOM NUMBER!
mr pedo: how did you get that (confused look)
joona: *puts equation into calculator again* oops... continue on..
other girl: *laughs*
joona: *goes tomato*

then lunch i met up with DELINNA "blue bag girl??"
then we met fiona,katy and sarah.
they all wanted to know if delinna was the blue bag girl that you know who was talking about.
so we all went up and met camille and i stood there..
i didnt wanna talk as usual.. cause i turn tomato.
i talked to an and penny and randoms on purpose..
so i didnt have to talk to you know who.

sarah: GO GO (repetitively)
joona: *tries walking and then walks back*
delinna: go ask!
camille: joona you go~
joona: *drags camille with her and then just comes back*

SILENCE for 5 mins? (only sarah talking "go go.."

---
peach finally decides to go and walks abit closer to apple and apple's friends
APPPLE!!! peach yells.
peach gets weird stares so peach runs away to berries.
berries laughs.
soon apple appears with one of his friends.
peach and berries talk.. (peach didnt know what she was talking about because she was going ripe.)
then apple nodded? and walked away.

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hahaha.. weird story..
its like related to my story COUGH COUGH..
yeah.. and then i told tim he need to strip if our team lost in basketball
and you know who had to strip if his team lost.?

HIS TEAM: you know who, katy (pro!!), karin (wee~), and random?
FRUIT TEAM: me, camille,tim and possibly an.

well yeah.. i want to win and i also want to lose.
last period was awesome even if i did have english with the WAVIK..
she's okay now i guess.
well, we went to library and read books and some people studied =3=
i read MANGA along with kim and jess.

it was fun!
:D
especially one im reading right now..VERY INTERESTING *eyebrow*

ttyl too much fun~
and goodnight :)
joona

rain..

2009-09-07T19:12:00.000+10:00

IT RAINING!!
im so random.. i ran outside when it started pouring.. and stood in my front yard like an idiot staring into the sky..
after a while i was crying.. (its so good no one can tell..)
it actually felt good.
it matched my mood..

i was waiting for the rain for a few days now..
so i was soo excited and cried.
LOLOLOL when i came back in my mum was like *stare*
GO GET A TOWEL AND CLEAN URSELF UP!!!!!
and my dad was outside in a chair undercover staring at the rain himself.. XD

i guess everyone waited for the rain..
i love the rain for that one purpose i can cry without people noticing.. i wonder how a mermaid would live (if they existed..) i mean they wouldnt have a emotion called crying?
i envy that.
my emotions keep exploding these days..
i bet i could've filled more than 1 litre of tears..

when i watched the drama 1 litre of tears
i cried so much and in a way i envied aiya.
i guess in the drama it made aiya look like she lived in a fairytale.
but the sad thing was that when all the good things in life happened sadness followed destroying her.
she got Spinocerebellar Ataxia at the age of 15..
the time when her happiest moments happen.
i wonder how it felt for her.
idk why but sometimes i really wish i had that disease.
just to know what she felt.

well, let's not hope it actually happens..
cause i have a whole life to live.

ttyl..
joona

my life; gets worser and worser.

2009-09-07T17:37:00.000+10:00

its a bad day readers,

today i thought i would just be sad about the friendship and love thing but another problem occurs and makes me feel..
SICK, HURT,BETRAYED and worst of all someone loses my trust.

berries and mango lost my trust
and i guess i lost apple's trust.

im all alone in the middle of nowhere.

what should i do now?
i dont feel like doing anything..

i want to just fall into a deep sleep like sleeping beauty and snow white except i dont want the prince to come and save me.

this is why
dreams are really not meant to come true.
hahahas. i think i just woke up from my fantasy..
im so sick of love and friendship and i feel as if im in this world all alone again.
it might be worse than last year but this time im not showing it. (emoness)

few questions to the lord.
are you really there watching over me?
is my life meant to be like this?
did i really sin a lot?
is my life ending soon?

OKAY STOP!! NO MORE NEGATIVE STUFF!!!

i found these inspirational quotes right this moment.

Friendship with oneself is all important because without it one cannot be friends with anybody else in the world.

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.

they're good ehh..

i need to learn to survive on my own but i dont know how..
im sorry for not typing what my days were like.. but i dont think i will be typing my "day" for at least 2 days.

thanks for reading
and thanks to those cheering me up and supporting me through these hard times.

ily joona

which way?

2009-09-06T22:21:00.002+10:00

♥

why cant i decide?

friendship or love?

shouldn't this be easy?
if i go with friendship i might find new love and have better memories and i will always have my bestfriend who was always there for me through the sad times and happy.
but if i go with love i will probably have to wait longer and suffer more from other girls without a shoulder to cry on.

i keep asking myself this but i cant reply.
the only reaction is tears.

the better choice is friendship for the happier me
but why cant i rubbish you know who.
WHY?

he only caused heartbreaks and tears and sadness or sometimes made me feel very happy but they never lasted. but whenever they disappeared and hurt me my bestfriend was there for me.
T.T

im an idiot.
i cant decide.. im going to let GOD GUIDE ME ON THIS ONE.

my prayer:

dear heavenly father,

thank you for this lovely also very sad father's day.
thank you for sending your one and only son down to this earth to save us from sin
father, today i'll like to ask you to bless all those who cursed me and to forgive them.
lord, i pray right now to ask for guidance.. i dont know what to choose friendship? or love..
they're both important things to me but i really dont know
please help me make the right choice.
in your name i pray

AMEN.

i better sleep now and hope for the best tomorrow.
*cries*
i hate my life.
i hope i just die if i continue feeling like this.

ily. joona

♥

hi♥

2009-09-06T14:56:00.000+10:00

i was bored..

so apparently i made a new blog~

im probably going use both of my blogs so don't worry

ily♥joona